grades

another progress report came in today. they were shit, again. not one A or B, just a bunch of Cs and Ds, and two Fs.
i used to do great in school. i'm pretty sure i never got a C in any class until like 10th grade. i started to slack off around then, there were a lot of days where i'd do nothing but play video games and only spend like an hour on homework after i got home.

i just feel like a loser. i don't want to blame anything else besides myself. i'm getting lazy. it's my senior year, last year of high school before university, and yet i can't motivate myself to do my work so i can actually get in and do something with my life. i feel like i'm letting down my parents too, even when my mom gets on my case about these grades. i don't know what to do. i just keep playing games and messing around on random sites like this and it just uses up all my time. i only have three days left to turn in work and there's just so much of it. i hope today's the day i start pushing myself and finish strong, without getting distracted.