NYALL i wasn't paying attention at all and i just realized that i have 100+ fwiends now, which is so fuckign swag??? like damn look at me mr. popular /j

also i was originally gonna write about how i overheard one of my coworkers listening to the fnf soundtrack the other day and now i wanna go up to him on monday and ask if he's a Fan™ of that game hngngnhmhngm ;;;; like i don't have a crush or anything on the guy i'm just really really curious if i'm working next to a fellow gamer or not.. what do (´･_･｀)

but anyway yeah you guys rock, tysm! <3

for all the gamer girls out there, here's some things i've done/made to prove that i'm a cool person :)

on my carrd i mention how pop'n music is a huge fixation/hobby of mine, this is a video i made to showcase myself playing the game for my buddies who had never even heard of the game: video

i went to film school up until 2020 and my main thing back then was designing characters for animation projects, here's the one i'm the most attached to even today :')
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some more pics/fanart i've done in the last six (6)-ish months........:
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i've also picked up a hobby for collecting pins through the course of the pandemic, these are the ones i for-sure wanna keep forever but i have more on my secondary Etsy Store!

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^^ (Use the code "K1NNIEZ" to get 25% off any order with 2 or more pins.) /srs

i have a howlr profile as well but i won't leak it in here for obvious reasons sfjdklgbl. if you're curious about anything else, i'll be waiting for you in my inbox! :^)

i should've done this sooner oops but here we go, i'll repost this if it disappears from my main page for some reason!

DNI:

• you're under 16; please. i'm begging yall
• basic dni criteria (anything-phobic basically)
• you're a heavily political person
• your main rhythm games are osu! or itg, those games give me eyestrain and the people i've talked to from those communities are usually jerks
• you reclaim slurs unironically (with the exception of q*eer!)
• you say stuff like "kills you" or "i'll strangle ur parents" to joke around, stuff like that makes me feel physically unsafe because i take those words literally!
• you're into cringe culture or shame people for the stuff they like i guess??? just be nice!

PLEASE interact with me if:

• you're a fan of garfield! /srs
• you had a warrior cats phase and never grew out of it
• ^^^same thing with littlest pet shop videos dfjbkl
• you have furry/animal OCs and talk about them a lot! because unsurprisingly i have a ton of those myself hahaha
• any of your interests/fixations are super niche, i know how hard it is to find people that'll give your interest(s) a chance personally, so ramble away to me! i LOVE learning/trying out new things!!!!
• you're a fan of character(s) from any game in the BEMANI series (examples include SDVX, pop'n music, DDR, etc!)
• you draw in ms paint or doodle silly things all the time!!!
• you share any kin sources with me silly (i'd be deadass shocked if someone has any of these tbh)
• ur single ;)) /hj
• lastly, if you know of any good/wholesome discord servers for anything i just wrote! i often go days without texting/talking to anybody online and so help me god i'm gonna change that

uh hi so i'm here now hello

i guess i should say right off the bat that i'm kind of a lone wolf (no pun intended) when it comes to socializing and meeting new people- but it wasn't always like this until pretty recently.

...see, i used to hang around the western rhythm game community since the day i took my first step into the World Wide Web- and that was seven years ago! over time though, as i got older, i had to come to the realization that maybe... i was clinging onto a public circle that i shouldn't be staying a part of. i won't go into details but basically, i suffered two back-to-back losses in the real world, but instead of offering sympathy and support, a majority of the people still active... like, made a joke about it? i'm not sure if that's the right word but i was told everything nasty you could think of, like "are you sure you're an adult? because you're saying stuff that's super r/tarded" and "people like you are why we can't have nice things. none of us really care so go back and cry to your parents about it".

i wouldn't say it was shocking to hear since, i mean, a bunch of people in there still take pride in being transphobic and sympathizing with sexual predators that are high-profile Gamers™, but seeing all of that in person... directed at me... left me feeling betrayed, abandoned, and numb. i remember feeling absolutely nothing for a good month or so.

but back to present-day, i've since moved communities to people that don't turn my special interests and neurodiversity into a daily spectacle. honestly it felt super weird to be in a place where nobody else played the games i play, but in the end i couldn't have been any more glad that i took the chance and met the amazing friends that i have now. because like, do i still have my bad days sometimes, yeah. but at least now i don't have to keep stuffing it down for the sake of other people still liking me anymore. and i never thought i would say that, to be real...

so long story short, it's been a rough couple of months but the end result has been better than anything i could've ever imagined. i finally can rest easy and be just... well... me! <3

anyways now that i'm done being sappy and silly i guess i'll make it a thing where if i'm writing about my interests or a project i'm investing a lot of time into, then the post will be written in proper grammar; Something like this, where it looks like I'm super smart and eloquent. otherwise all of my other posts are gonna be sporadic and lighthearted probably, and those will be in all lowercase like everything y'all just read.

i have no idea if people will even interact with me on this site but regardless, i'm super excited to have a place where i just write about anything and everything and i hope whoever reads my blog (a.k.a, YOU!) has a great time seeing what i'm up to!!