i have been going through a bit of an identity crises recently but in the past year or so i have been getting into metal and scene bands that i listened to a while back and even new artists!

i am absolutely losing my mind once again over bands like bmth, pierce the veil, and sleeping with sirens, but also bands like rammstein (god i was OBSESSED with rammstein from ages 9-14; it was an odd period of time). i also started listening to people like siiickbrain, poppy, and babymetal.

i am eagerly awaiting for a rock revival - from scene and emo reappearing back in culture (especially ever since mcr reunited, and with quarantine tiktok slowly bringing back hairstyles and fashion choices reminiscent of that era) but also a revival of more accessible genres like pop punk and derivatives, as seen with people like mgk, yungblud, and modsun, and especially considering all of travis barkers features.

i would absolutely kill to see halsey make a rock album, and am overall excited for a revival.

something i feel lost about is wanting to be involved in said revival, but not knowing how. zines and music videos perhaps will be my calling. <333333

hiii!!! i finished my new zine!!! its taylor swift's folklore as movies!!!
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hiiii im a bit behind on my reading but gooood!!!!!

this month im going for sooo many rereads and i already finished pride and prejudice and now am rereading wuthering heights! i literally cannot describe how incredible it is! its taken over jane eyre for the spot of my favorite book!! when i read wuthering heights for the first time, i genuinely hated it because of how awful it is but then i realized that the charm in the book is in its awfulness!! im going ham annotating and thinking...

thinking about things like how cathy's soul is one with heathcliff's and thus both their souls are one with the wuthering heights estate; i am trying to make out the meaning behind cathy's ghost (given the word choice constantly alluding to biblical hell, it could be that in a blasphemous way cathy is heathliff's god, and perhaps vice versa, which could explain the wretchedness and misfortune both experience! also how death is foreshadowed and perhaps there is clairvoyant wishful thinking, which is once again a supernatural element).

something that borrows me so much about film adaptations of wuthering heights is that in most heathcliff is played by white actors, despite being literally described as having dark skin in the book. so much to think about!!!

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i also finished rereading the hunger games and am now reading catching fire. the hunger games are the single most important book series to me! there is also sooo much to them i could write essays upon essays! i am also planning on reading anna karenina, a full collection of keat's poems, rereading romeo and juliet, and then reading books about women in art and japanese art history! so far thats the plan <333

currently losing my shit listening to in utero!!! nirvana is definitely one of my all time favorite bands and has been for years! im thinking of maybe making lists of albums i luv <33 there are so many!!!
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i luv taylor sm!!! here is a gaylor swift playlist i made<333

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7JicVNokz38Kw5BWro2J8M?si=3N1FZggnQs-oTAjn5dHdPA

theres sooo much snow today and i feel like snooki. waaah! i wanna go to miami!!!
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im having a bad day (but its whatevs) and i spent the morning listening to avril's under my skin and then a bit of taylor's 1989! i luv my morning music choices!!! yesterday was kanye's 808s and heartbreaks. wish me luck for today ;P im definitely going to go home and watch new moon lol (its been a hard day... and its gone on only for like an hour and a half).

i dont like my job so much :::(((

fml i missed my work out today :( not fun at all and can’t wait 4 tmrw when i can work out!!! i keep getting a lil lazy even tho it’s so important for ur health to keep active and i’ve been rlly into it lately as i feel my strength building up AND bc i listen to slayyyter when i work out >:)