i knew i shouldnt do it and thats why i didnt.
he said he would talk to me, and of course he did, for barely a day lol
i didnt want to put him into that compromise, but i actually didnt do it because i knew it would be ME who would have ended up badly.

they just dont realise.
they only use me 4 my body. and so do i actually.
but im not a bad person
im not a bad person
im not bad
im not

i discovered yesterday that he lied to me abou this age and he is one year younger.
i dont care about that, but he didnt need to lie to me lol
i feel stupid cause everybody knew except me. i feel so clueless.
today i will probably see him bc im going shopping to the city with my friend, but i dont want revenge, i just want to tell him that he didnt need to lie to me even though he was afraid i would reject him 4 that. that it is okey, im not mad, but id have liked to know the truth. thats it.
i dont like being fooled.

ok so i wont go see him this weekend (he lives in the city) bc of the bad timing.
the thing is that he told me if i would go next weekend and i said i would try to. But then i asked him when would he come where i live, to what he responded 'when there is something' referring to a party or smth.
BITCH WHAT? u telling me i will go intentionally to meet him, and he wont?
then fuck him. well i will fuck him yeah bc its just that but it pisses me off. a lot.

you know, nobody had treated me like him before, and even tho i know i shouldnt catch feelings, i cant avoid thinking about it.

ok so context:
the other day i made out with this guy and he was so cuteeeee, but he is kinda a fuckboy.
so idk if it was bc he just does that with all the girls or bc he liked me a lil more ^^
the thing is that im gonna meet him this saturday again hopefully and im scared i am catching feelings.
guys give me ur opinionnnn!! it is obvioulsy more complicated than this but my dms are opened and we can talkkk

it is for a philosophy project.
just let ur hand type and ur mind flow

im eating grapes and they r so gooood
anyway, what are ur cool plans 4 the summer?????

i think im going on a surf camp and parties avec my fwiends and just spend the whole summer high LOL

i had my first kiss yesterday
yeah
i just turned 16 lol
its bc taurus season 4sure
many ppl thought it was weird that i hadnt hooked up before with anyone but its just they were all jerks and yk my ed also xd
anyway living life 2 the fullest

tw:ed

i baked some sugar palms and ate them all LOL im improving little by litte, i dont feel guilty and neither i am of today's croissant so i guess im getting better:)

i found a poem i wrote on october 2020 about my bulimia back them and i felt so proud of myself and more grown up<3

i also took a walk, went to my english lesson, some hw, and now imma have a shower.

i took a resting day today :)

just leaving this here cuz it slaps
https://youtu.be/E6MMyKAJZ4E

anyway, how is everything? ugh, like if i cared...
I am great, i am motivated: two months till summer so lets get those summer bodies!!
I started yesterday a Chloe Ting's workout.
Yeah I know gross, but its what it takes.

Also a reminder: dont starve urself, just eat healthy<3

Bye Byee

i've had a really toxic obsession w skins uk for like 3 years now
pls tell me im not the only one