ive only been here for one day and i feel like my page is to sad lol

also OH MY GOD EVERYONE ON THIS SITE IS SO COOL

random rant about specific interests i have lol
im actually like obsessed with disturbing paintings some good well known examples would be Goyas saturn eating his son, the flaying of Marsys and some others made by various artist so every once in a while i might rant about artist i like.

im also really into dark or just confusing books one of my favorites is Alice in wonderland which is also something i might rant about.

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he was horrifed with what he made
its eyes stared back at him
the words haunted him
how could he have made something so grotesque
it haunted him
but he couldnt destroy it

HE MADE THESE HORRIFIC WORDS AND HE HATED HIMSELF FOR IT

everytime she played the piano i felt like i was wieghtless
in the worst kind of way
her fingers dragged across the keys as i was overcome by nauseau
i felt like i would never come back down
but i didnt want to leave
i reached out but she smiled sadly at me
her fingers becoming white from the force of her gentle touches to the piano
it was over it had to be
i never wanted to feel wieghtless again

she said the eyes were the windows to the soul
so i decided to look inside hers

i dug my hands into her corneas to see what i could find

but i couldnt find much

all i could feel were her organs being ripped out by my bare hands

one time a woman accidently ate a watermelon seed

she was scared at first but then got increasingly more excited
thinking how amazing it would be to have a watermelon of her own

her friends would see her watermelon and compliment her on how great it was

and then she saw it and decided she didnt like it

so she killed it when it sprouted 9 months later

its tiny screams cracked her mind

i painted the small curves of her face
the white coller of her dress carresed her milky skin

then i painted the earring she was wearing

the pearl perfectly reflected her unmatched sillouete

but then the earring fell ripping her skin like paper

with a loud thud the object fell coated in blood

i watched the tears prick her eyes as i thought

the red from the wound compliments her beauty so much more than that pearl

the syringe slowly entered her brain
a slight pain made her jump but other than that she stayed still

the syringe injected her brain with so many ideas,colors,sounds, and images

but soon it hurt
her brain was being overloaded all at once

and with a sickening pop her brain exploded

her eyes shone like stars
they were so bright they could light up a room
but one day they exploded
the blood poured from her face as the fire bore into her skull
her vibrant iris' combusting
she fell to the ground
i rushed to pick up the pieces but they burned

she may as well just have ripped them out herself

your face is morphing
slowly into someone elses
your features are switching to someones ive never known
like paint being smudged
and i dont even know what to do