ok ok i think im fine now and that im over him now (probably gonna comeback later but still rn im over it)

so always when i fall in love i fall hard.
there was this guy I used to be in love for four years from my old class(aswell as my current since we got into the same school)and when I confessed to him and he rejected me i felt nothing a little bit of sadness but it was something i neeeded.
There was another guy i liked from scouts (in my country we have mixed boys n' girls shit and ya know in scouts)and i fell for him three years again when i confessed to him through instagram he said we're living too far from eachother and even though i felt things for him he started to ignore me and i just started to not like him.
there was this girl from my current class,i immediately fell for her and i loved her so much but then i confessed to her couple of times(bc majoroty of the times i said it was na prank)and when i said i wrote a song for her she said that she doesn't really like me.tbh this one hurt the most but now again im set with another challenge
now it's a mcyt-tommyinnit and the problem is i really can't ask him to reject me or ignore him since his face is all over my tik tok,youtube and even pinterest and i keep thinking about him and i thought even about contacting him somehow but idk now i have an obssession,alot of my dreams include him and i really can't stop thinking about him

also come to think of it if i stop liking him theres another guy and after that guy would be a girl if my theory that there's a scheme of me falling in love with certian people
but i get crushes on alot of people and you know
also if tommy would get a partner(becouse we are not sure if he's gay or not)i would be mad i would respect his relatioship with someone else tthat is not me

anyways bye bye
hope not so many people would see this

Anyone want to be friends and chat with me uwu???(shy hands emoji sfjhfjkjk)

Ok so this is kinda a vent bc why not but also a story time
So i was at my best friends house for a sleepover and she decided we gonna talk with her friends on discord and then there was one guy that kept asking for my snapchat so i gave him it but it was worse bc he wants to be a cop and also im a minor but he's 19 and he keeps flirting with me.

There was other guy that my best friend is in a relationship with,he also asked for my snapchat and yesterday he asked if he wants a ,,threesome" with me and my friend.

But there's more.There is one i was joking about that he is a simp,yesterday(valentines day)when i came back from my best friends house and i went on a vc our other friend kept giving signs that he is a simp and comparing himself to sherlock just becouse he watched the series (not me here cringed bc me fan of the books)and i basicly knew from the beginning becouse of the tone of his voice(of the guy who we call a simp)and couple of other actions and when it was like almost midnight i got a messege from him when i was watching a dream smp video.It was a message about how he thinks im cool and he like likes me and he thanks the other friend that he convinced me he is a simp and that we could maybe do a ft date(the last bit is from when i asked him if he wants on a ft date like very sarcasticly but he didn't get it i guess)

to top it off
they all don't know im nonbinary and keep saying ,,girl" which keeps hurting me sooo.
also i broke up with one person day before valentines becouse we had nothing in common and i didn't like them anymore
sooo ye

rn im in my sculpturing class idk what to do bc i have to do a human :/
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