music

2021/02/06

i was listening to tonight tonight - smashing pumpkins recently n the lyrics:

time, is never time at all
we can never ever leave
without leaving a piece of youth

something abt discovering the pumpkins when i was 12 and listening to this song at 18, 2 months 'til 19. it hit home
like that whole album as a whole is sad as fuck but i've been thinking about those words all day. that song was never my favourite either

and i went to listen to tonight tonight - hot chelle rae right after to feel a bit less down but then i was thinking about fourth grade and that made me sad too. honestly dont know if this should go to the "smash my face on concrete" blog atp bc it's emo journal-esque blabber tho if anything i'm including a set of songs for tonight:

get away - yuck
blue light - mazzy star
tonight tonight - pumpkins (ofc)
hurt - 1 800 pain
6 underground - sneaker pimps
cigaro - system of a down
georgie girl - seekers

yes i am aiming to feel every kind of emotion available tonight and maybe that'll erode my feelings-o-meter faster. if ur actually reading this thank u for ur time and dedication u get nothing in return

2021/02/07

some tunes i have on tonight:
elliott smith - clementine
blue flower - mazzy star
pearl - chapterhouse
dying inside - cranberries
trees and flowers - strawberry switchblade

and a bunch of other industrial songs

2021/03/24

i was planning on recording what kind of music i listened to on a weekly basis per month - so one month would b one volume i guess? - but i fucked up and now it's almost april.

anyways, what i've been listening to this week:
you're gonna regret what you've done - greet death
she is inside, he is outside - mass of the fermenting dregs
gepetto - belly
july talk - the news
trustful hands - the do
i wanna be adored - the stone roses (which are like. one of my favs ever)

and three cheers by mcr on loop until i cant think anymore like usual.

also my bday was on the 19th and its crazy to think how fucking old i am now. just 19 really but it feels like im about to collect my pension but at the same time i still feel like im 8 years old. mentally stunted, probably.

i miss feeling like i had infinite potential before i promptly self destructed