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2021/01/14

im broke and unemployed and desperate and its 1 am tho i know im going to be up until 6 but im screaming my lungs out to three cheers 4 sweet revenge and thinking abt old mcr fanfics on a03 and just. i never thought id say it but i actually, genuinely miss being 13. like it sucked so bad i still have to deal with a lot of my middle school trauma but at the same time i think i peaked emotionally then

anyways heres one of my fav songs off of three cheers (the whole album slaps but still):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d116o39GHx0

2021/02/02
more blabber today
i keep procrastinating on my work and writing mcr fanfiction again pretending that im 13 - even though i have shitloads of my uni shit to do. i think i need to psychoanalyze myself instead of listening to pencey prep and acting as if that counts as therapy
i made some organic paints and they look like shit. i don't care if i get shitty grades anymore, just a pass.
i also want to write more music?? idk, it's been a while. i used to write like i was a nick drake without reading comprehension skills; now I want to write something more experimental. In the vein of electronica - Sneaker Pimps? - but not quite.

i cant stop myself from adding things onto my profile but my profile layout now makes me extremely dizzy. i like it, but i want to throw up looking at it

2021/03/27
4:57 AM check-in i guess
im bored and lonely. please hmu xx i dont bite i promise xx

2021/03/31
7:13 AM check-in
i have 10,000 fucking assignments overdue and i havent slept all night and im so unmotivated lol anyways heres me bitching again
my aunt just left for work and i still havent gone to bed yet. feeling v. nauseated. i want 2 watch a movie yet i dont i dont know. maybe i should just wait for my next life??