Forgot to write one yesterday. I'm really sorry.

Wrote 500 words of paper. 1000 more to go, by tomorrow.

Forgot the name of the album my dad recommended to me. Nice jazz/minimalism stuff, but I prefer Reich's to this guy.

Listening to Yerin Baek's new album. I really like her voice, she's becoming one of my favorite K-pop soloists. She has a very consistent style, and I can respect that.

Finished "Appare-Ranman". One of the best I've watched in awhile. I feel empty now (as I always do). Oh, well. If I can finish all my necessary work by Sunday, I can watch Evangelion with my friend.

Someone made eye contact with me on the bus. I hid my face and almost cried.

My professor extended a due date for this final paper. Perfect. I don't want to do work right now.

i'm listening to "campfire songs" by animal collective while I type this. It's exactly what I wanted. Word has it a blizzard will come through soon, and boy do I feel it. gonna have to go to target before the weekend to ensure food. anyway, this is wistful guitar strumming, non-comprehendible lyrics and it makes me feel better. It's just like the name says.

Listened to Drippin's debut album. Not what I expected, very lighthearted with a touch of sentimental that works in its favor.

Watched more "Appare-Ranman." Seeing Kosame fight through his own trauma to protect others was so well done my jaw dropped. I love a character who could fight if they had to, but sincerely wants peace instead (like kenshin maybe? hm.)

I had a panic attack on the bus today. I don't want to talk about it. Maybe later. Therapy seems extremely necessary, but i still worry about perception. pray for me, if that's your thing

"DOGGY" by Animal Collective
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKzXz1VBOAk

How the f*ck am I supposed to come up with a counter argument on a topic that I don't know enough about??? I like this professor, but c'mon man, its finals week...

My sister recommended an album to me today. nice lo-fi beats type thing. felt very warm so I liked it a lot.

Listened to FTISLAND today. First time really digging deep, and I'm impressed. "Pray" was very good. There's a part where the singer's voice turns into a synth (guitar? idk instruments very well). it almost brought me to tears. worth looking into further.

Watched "Animaniacs" today. I never watched it as a kid, before my time, and I am enjoying it. Their satire is a bit on SNL level (ugh), but when they're good, they're good!

I never wondered how I was viewed through the eyes of other people until this crisis started. Something as simple as getting a salad at the cafeteria and I don't want any of these complete strangers to know I'm a boy. Why is that? In related news, are these tics just something i always had, or have they developed cuz of quarantine? When the winter break is over, I might see how Iowa's counselors are...

"PRAY" FTISLAND MV

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1ZUFyS3-e8

I have got to stop procrastinating. I can't keep up the excuses for too long.

In other news, I finally listened to the whole "Frengers" album by Mew. I was worried the rest of the album wouldn't live up to the killer opener, but I had nothing to fear!

Tried to find some B1A4 videos to get the member's names down, but IDK, they were all from a while ago. I guess its the curse of being a stan who only seems to fall in with groups on hiatus or are disbanded :/

Watched another episode of "Appare-Ranman." It's honestly becoming a favorite of mine, but the sterotypical costumes are leaving me wondering "What were they thinking?"

I felt pretty masc most of the day, except for when I stared at myself in the mirror. I wonder why that is...

I hope it snows this week~

"AM I WRY? NO" by Mew MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_3u7aspmDY&ab_channel=MewVEVO