hey i'm back, it's been fucking months but school has been kicking my ass, hopefully it will get better but i get the feeling it won't

just wanted to say hey and let everyone know i'm alive, i'm thinking about completely overhauling my css bc i dont really like what i have right now. thinking about doing mustard yellows and maybe some browns? i dont know, i suddenly feel like my page is an eyesore so i want to fix it

anyway i love yall hope everyone is doing well. this site is fun and i'm glad i'm experiencing it with yall

EDIT: OH MY GOD I MESSED UP BLOG CSS SO BAD BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME TO FIX IT SO I KNOW IT'S MESSED UP BUT I'LL FIX IT LATER

i'm really tired and i dont know how to do my homework and i've got a couple of lectures to watch and also reading to do before class tomorrow T.T
i really do not want to do free body diagrams. at all. no free body diagrams. physics isn't real. i refuse to believe in physics. when we hang stuff in theatres we just hold it up with pure willpower because our minds are so so strong and powerful. physics? never heard of her.

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i went to therapy this morning and it went really well, i really like my new therapist and i think i'll actually stick with it this time. she's queer and totally gets that i'm enby and queer and all that gender stuff and she has adhd too so hopefully she'll get what i'm talking about and gahhh i'm just really stoked about it, it was so hard to connect with my last therapist because i felt like i was having to ignore that i was queer and it made it hard to feel like i was being fully honest with her!!!!

my discord is dr mandible jackson#9426

add me and message me ur myspace username so i know who everyone is!!!

okay i'm about to hang a mirror and some curtains for my girlfriend, wish me luck because i'm gonna need it

anyway while i'm doing that send me/comment any number 1-100 and i'll tell you which song that is on my spotify wrapped and what i associate with that song!

people need to stay out of discourse/discussions that they dont belong to. i'm so tired of seeing minorities being spoken over because 'allies' are speaking for them and trying to virtue signal instead of shutting the fuck up and listening to what minorities have to say. this applies to literally any minority right now.
what specifically awoke this in me was having my experiences as an enby lesbian be invalidated by cis non-lesbians who have never and will never experience what i and other lesbians have. you're not enby, you're not lesbian, so why are you telling me how /I/ should be experiencing my own gender and relationship to womanhood?? (i could go on about this for hours)
also i just watched a cis person tell a trans person what pronouns they could use because according to this cis person, using it/its pronouns is inappropriate and they would know because they have a trans friend whose mother wont use their preferred pronouns.

i've gotta stop fighting people in tiktok comments but i'm just so heated about it right now. i just needed to vent, shoutout to anyone who read this far

i feel like a middle aged dad trying to relate to his angsty emo son but can someone please explain what kinning is to me?
like i've got a general idea but i've seen definitions ranging from "it's when you really relate to a character" to "YOU ARE THE CHARACTER IN MIND, BODY, AND SPIRIT" and i'm just a little confused

(next i'm gonna do the awkward dad thing and be like "oh i kin haruhi fujioka" and it doesnt really work but i'm trying really hard to connect with my kids who think i'm old and lame but this just makes them think i'm even older and lamer)

i dont know what happened to my blog css, i didnt realize that some of the stuff i added for my main profile would end up messing with the blog layout too and now it looks like this and it's messed up but i dont mind that much

@ my minor friends on here, i dont mind that we're friends but just so you guys know i'm like 20 years old so if you dont like that feel free to unfriend me, i won't be offended. i dont think it'll be a problem since i dont plan on posting any 18+ stuff here but just keep that in mind when we interact! don't want things to be weird （＾ω＾）

life is wild and it's stressing me out even tho i'm on a month long break from school i still have a ton of stuff to do for one of my classes because i was having the worst time and made a deal with my teacher to get an extension. i just dont have any motivation right now and i'm struggling with the fact that i probably (definitely) have adhd. it's making it so hard to do stuff and i've been trying to make it better but i dont have the motivation to find a therapist and get a diagnosis, let alone do a lot of the stuff that keeps me functioning as a human being.

anyway that's the rant i'm just a lil frustrated and tired with school and mental health is makin it a lil harder, i'm vibing tho
if anyone reads drarry fanfiction i'm reading turn by saras_girl on ao3 right now and it's really good, you should check it out

fun question: wow you made it this far??? what's your favorite object that you have?
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i'm having so much fun on this site
when i was like 12 i was so sad that i wasn't a 90s kid because myspace and msn messenger seemed so cool. i was so so sad that i was too young to use all the stuff when it was popular so now i'm living my 90s kid dream on the new myspace with you guys.
also, cringe culture is dead here and i love it i'm not embarrassed to be vibing the way i wanna. i hardly ever talk about anime and stuff with my irl friends even tho we all watch it because they dont watch haikyuu or ouran, so shoutout to my friends on here for having convos with me about it!

fun question: do you guys have any of those squishmallows? i've got like 7 at this point and they bring me so much joy they're so soft and cuddly

i'm having the time of my life learning css and hanging out on this website!! it's so fun meeting everyone making friends is so fun!

fun question: if you could have any kind of pet what would you pick?

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