sooo blogging is fun!!?? i want to ramble about routines a bit. i actually really like having routines and sometimes changing them makes me very uncomfortable. i like being a certain person with a certain routine i dont know if that makes sense. but like you know those characters people kin? i want to have certain characteristic qualities (?) like them. its not like a main character complex thing, i just want to have a certain character that people think of when they hear my name. anyways routines! they are certain and very expected so it makes me feel very comfortable. but i think i'm getting way too comfortable at this point. i've been living the same days for months! wake up at 8:30, rush to your online class that starts exactly at 8:30, be done with school, lay around and sleep. i dont know i know its almost everyone's life rn but still it's getting too boring. sometimes i'm too comfortable by just looking at my phone i don't watch a movie or read a bit and it sucks! anyways i guess that's it i'll let you know if my routine changes. it's highly unlikely because i can't even go out now but still. also hope i can find myself soon. message me if you feel similar so we can lose our minds together over this.

al

here's a routine song that calms me down:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGw8F1VZmo4

i've never did something like this before so this blog will be interesting. i might just ramble about philosophy with my bad english so i2m sorry in advance for anyone who reads these. i've been thinking a lot about existentialism lately and i think the biggest existential crisis is not having one. i don't feel like a normal human being because no matter how much i think about this big storm of existing never hits me and i just feel normal. i think thats why i ordered almost evey camus book, so maybe i can just feel something while reading those. i thing i'm going to lose my mind if i don't have an existential crisis soon. than i can feel that euphoria and start feeling like a human being again. i think thats all i wanna talk about for now so yeah lol. sorry if it sounds stupid this thought has been eating my brain lately. is this even a thing? eating ones head? im just gonna go now hope everyone who is reading this is having an amazing day! <3

al

here's a song i've been listening to today:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsaVAOb19o8