guess who's 18 on the 18th :P

fuck that's scary

u all owe me a drink now LMAO jokes <3

nah but honestly, i have no idea what to do, please leave ideas <3

i am t e r r i f i e d of growing old, i don't want to be an adult :)

k baiiii thxx ♡

guess who finally graduated lads ♡♡♡

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that is all

thank u for ur time <3

okay so basically, is it possible to have like light pink borders (#F67CE2) around the box thingies? and for the text too? my css is a mess, and idk what to delete and what to keep yIkEssss

i wanna keep the background black, and maybe add like a gif/image on the right side rather than the left hEh

i have no idea what i'm doing send help akdjbdfkhsljfnojs

so if you've been fwiends w me for a little while, you'll remember my old pfp/aeshetic/vibes

i had a breakup, bit of a mental breakdown, and decided to rebrand a little, this blog was just for anyone wondering what happened lmao, honestly, don't ask, idk either

i'm still really struggling, so hmu w some kind words pls thx k bai ily <3

♡ emotional dump ♡

I used to be the type of person to trust everyone. I was so happy, and free
I think you should just move on
I think you deserve better
I say i'll fuck up
I say it's so hard to be trusting now
I wish i could tell you how guilty i feel! i wish my brain would stop lying to me.
I don't understand my mind anymore
and i push you away because my trust is so broken
I want you to go, but i'm oh so alone
I want revenge, i want bloodshed, but not from you
I could never hurt you. i don't want that, i want him to hurt
words are so hard, i wish i could explain
i feel so fucking crazy, you know about my pain
i don't know what to do, i'm lost wherever i turn
that lust you have for me, it makes my stomach churn

i used to love being in love, used to love being free
used to smile, when you'd come home, you had my key

then you turned. you chose to hurt me
and then i chose, i just want to be free

nothing could prepare me for how alone i would be
i need him! please don't say he's guilty
i would challenge my mind trying to come up with excuses
"it was just the one time, i swear he loves me, it was just one drink to many, i just fell over, i swear the scars are just from childhood"

i swear i'm okay, let's put on a show, stand up straight, fake a smile, and don't let them know.
hide your scars under chunky hoodies, try not to flinch if they catch a glimpse.

"you're doing this for attention, stop speaking out, you should shut up, be a good girlfriend, boys will be boys"

so yes. i don't trust you, i don't trust myself, but i'm trying to forget, let the memories rot on a shelf
but just like the scars, the way i bruise so easy, they won't go, they're here to show, that i'm so fucking weak.

free once again, but i still want you, he just had a bad day, don't say he's guilty.

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and no, i don’t care about the mascara stains on my hoodie sleeves,
or the long walk back home in the rain, the wind blowing about leaves,
it’s the way his voice lingers, him running his fingers-
i hate all this pain, so much shame. oh, but i can’t just leave, for he loves me. the very thought makes me go weak at the knees

(i'll keep updating this if i write more)

♡ Favourite bands/artists ♡
The Sex Pistols, lil peep, MCR, Carter USM, Paramore, Twenty One Pilots, 100 gecs, Melanie Martinez, The Jam, The Clash, Blondie, Cavetown, Declan McKenna, Fleetwood Mac, Florence + the Machine, Gorrillaz, Grandson, Green day, Lady Gaga, Madness, Merkules, Oliver Tree, Powfu, Tyler the creator, YUNGBLUD, mother mother, glass animals, lemon demon

there are so many more, i just can't think rn <3

♡ Tv/Movies ♡
stranger things, trinkets, kiss me first, the end of the f***ing world, santa clarita diet, black mirror, atypical, orange is the new black, bad education, i am not okay with this, the good place, the it crowd, derry girls, russian doll, sex education, dirk gently's hollistic detective agency, how to sell drugs online fast, shameless, disenchantment, crazyhead, self made, happy, tiger king, wanted, the perks of being a wallflower, the fundamentals of caring, mid 90s, departures, the neverending story, ponyo.

♡ Extra ♡
i've been practicing witchcraft since october 2019, and i'm an eclectic witch (healing/music/green/kitchen/crystal/divination/elemental/weather/lunar/literary). I use crystals/herbs/candles/insence/energy/tarot/meditation in my craft.
i'm also into astrology, i don't know much, but i have a gemini sun sign, aquarius moon sign and capricorn rising sign :)

♡ My aesthetics ♡

(i have way too many to name, so i'll try to sum it up in images)

https://iv1.lisimg.com/image/1335494/262full-sid-vicious.jpg

https://data.whicdn.com/images/288964078/original.jpg

https://64.media.tumblr.com/6df9f64932ebfcdd5f9f2fef5f858fee/ae2ecf10eb05f3c0-d8/s640x960/e39d5f13fd0e56438a7c16119270647623896d71.jpg

https://i.pinimg.com/originals/8b/1e/10/8b1e102b8bee05e6a51776b6ebd0f727.png

https://i.pinimg.com/originals/8e/d1/06/8ed1061c551c2de74a2170177cc03a40.jpg

https://images-ext-2.discordapp.net/external/XPpmY7U06c02sfH0vMrtmYeY4UbrfKBB7511glHsels/%3Fcb%3D20190727152725/https/static.wikia.nocookie.net/aesthetics/images/8/81/B2d0867e-18f9-4fad-b5b0-8dadd6deb1d7.octet-stream.jpg/revision/latest/top-crop/width/300/height/300

so i'm a total idiot, as we all know
if you message me on here, please let me know in the comments here? purely because, i'm not sure which messages are new, because they all look like they've been read?
i'm really sorry if you think i've ever ignored a message, it's not my intention! i've just accidentally looked over it, thinking i've already read it :(

if you want to have a convo with me, i have most social medias, i could even talk on a google doc if you're bothered lmao, but i just struggle to remember and follow conversations on here, because i forget what i've sent :(

please don't hate me if i don't reply, i'm trying my best!

seriously though, hmu on some of my socials, i'm usually v active, and i'm always down to talk to people <3