I am worthless (vent)

my ex has 4000 followers, is working on a game, and even has her memes posted on youtube. i just realized ive done nothing with my life and ill never be successful.

I comfort her, gave her all the love i could, everything. but no, i failed her. I drained her with talking about repetitive things. I deserved her cheating on me in front of me. I deserved the pain. I was never enough, and i never will be. she'll probably be more successful than me too in the future, and I'll just be either doing crack or just commiting suicide.