i exist,, or do i???

i've never did something like this before so this blog will be interesting. i might just ramble about philosophy with my bad english so i2m sorry in advance for anyone who reads these. i've been thinking a lot about existentialism lately and i think the biggest existential crisis is not having one. i don't feel like a normal human being because no matter how much i think about this big storm of existing never hits me and i just feel normal. i think thats why i ordered almost evey camus book, so maybe i can just feel something while reading those. i thing i'm going to lose my mind if i don't have an existential crisis soon. than i can feel that euphoria and start feeling like a human being again. i think thats all i wanna talk about for now so yeah lol. sorry if it sounds stupid this thought has been eating my brain lately. is this even a thing? eating ones head? im just gonna go now hope everyone who is reading this is having an amazing day! <3

al

here's a song i've been listening to today:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsaVAOb19o8