damn over a year now that I made this account confetti wild.

haven't been very active as of late which is wack but AGH such cool people here, have just loved seeing all's going on 'n happening
with the people vibing in this neat space.

UMMMMM yeah so now what?

tch don't ask me, ya nerd. go make out with someone or something.

..........

TWO BEZSTDFRINEDS 'N A-

(that helps things make sense)
anyways second and shortest month of the year, let us freakin' go
lol im never sure what's worth making a blog about but but but AAAHAHAHA I THINK IM LIKE 160(??) HOURS INTO BOTW SO FAR and i just really really like it heheh. i've beat the sense into each of the four dIv i nE beasts so now i'll just be wandering aimlesly and helping out these pleb villagers and all until i finally feel like facing Ganon's stinky ass

but god it feels good to finally play a game like this one all on my own, it sucked growing up with the one gaming system in the house in the hands of a "dont lay a finger on my shit" kinda brother jfc i once bought an Uncharted game myself and was neVER able to get past about halfway because he'd never let me play long enough then would deliberately delete all my progress afterwards...like yo man what thee fuque is your problem

anyways all the ones I had gotten since getting my Switch (in August) were all related to mario, kirby, or free to play games which yk those are lovelyy buuut this game was simply a breath of t̶h̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶l̶d̶ fresh air

i’m suddenly struck with a memory and thinking back i think it’s kinda fucking funny-
riding in the very back seat of a packed car on a long road trip through Dominican Republic, year of 2016
I’m laying my head back, trying to sleep through some of this long ass drive right because duh and I'm finally peacefully drifting off when i very faintly hear a familiar tune.... I didn’t have my phone on me because it was upfront charging so um wtf right. I soon realize it’s coming from the car’s speakers and so i listen closer and; i am gravely shooken. It was a song i knew could only be coming from my phone. So I panic and say “HEY GUYS UHHH SORRY MY UH PHONE IS PLAYING MUSIC TO THE CAR FOR SOME REASON YOU CAN UH JUST GIVE IT TO ME SO I CAN TURN IT OFF HAHAHAHA” to which my godfather in the driver’s seat responded in spanish along the lines “Oh! How nice I’d love to know what kind of music my goddaughter listens to. I’ll just put it up so you can hear it better :D”
Me: “nONONO IT’S ALRIGHT JUS-” . . . .
𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗟 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗪𝗔𝗬 𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗟 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗪𝗔𝗬 𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗪𝗔𝗬 𝗪𝗔𝗬-
he put it down after a bit while me and my tiny brain marinated in that embarrassing silence for a gooood long while, being judged by my fellow family members as what they perceive to be a white-washed heathen sitting amongst them
i just-.......sighhh i have no excuse for why jacksepticeye’s All The Way song was unironically in my playlist
~that is all~

i really want to go back to when the first season of steven universe was just coming out, simply watching the same re-runs of just the few episodes that had released, not knowing how intense that lil show would get and just...simpler times they were in the year of 2013.

no pandemiccccc
no challenging schoooooool work
no worrying about the future that gets closer every daaaaaaaaaaaay
not being at all politically aWARE lol (I KNOW IT'S IMPORTANT BUT GOD IT'S EXHAUSTING)
no gosh ding dang darn identity crisis literally just were what you were
JEEZ IDK MAN i just wanna wanna be a dummy dum dum kid again

o shite actually i think 2013 was the year i supposedly "almost died" from some kind of kidney complication....but i didn't! sooo fuck it. hell i still wanna go back, pfft i'd actually like to make more friends in that lil game room i didn't find out they had until my second to laST day at the hospital >:v

MY GOD oh jeez oh wow. wasn't yesterday like just halloweeN....BUT IT ALSO FEELS LIKE SEPTEMBER WAS LITERAL FUCKIN YEARS AGO. I've neglected my page for so long omg, my bad. i think I remember writing something but then it all getting deleted and I just GAAAGGHHHHAGAHG.

anyways hey huemanes. work is draining, feel like im missing out on life, and constantly filled with raGE that i lack the energy to express. all that shit is just sitting in every single lil crevice of my body. ON TOP OF THAT we are now seemingly going to be virtual all year :D so that doesn't make me feel any better at all because there's this totally healthy dose of fear I am a child and will struggle to ever burn through and out of that chunky layer of immaturity and won't be ready once it's time to leave this high school sort of protective bubble BECAUSE we've missed so much. especially since there's quite a bit that is gained from our daily interactions and conflicts n' shit with others and its happening so so much less.

plz tell me how you guys are feeling, the goods and the bads.if you'd like to yk? either way I genuinely hope you come across something that gives you the smiley's today

a rant that doesn't make any sense but I had to get out of my system cuz ik I'm dumdum too
honestly yo. we're all shitty people in someone's point of view, but at what point are we considered genuinely bad people? and not on the level of being borderline cold-hearted monsters cuz that's just something else. but at what point can we blame people for doing shitty things that society has taught them was ok? like if society taught you that something was ok, does it make you a bad person for participating in that behavior/outlook? idkk it's just hard to see what goes on on the internet and shit, it's just so polarizing. everyone thinks their opinions are so perfect and correct that they become tone-deaf to the other side of the argument not being able to debate it out or even agree to disagree... everyone HAS to agree with what you think or they're "just a fucking stupid" person. it's just frustrating that people on each side of an argument can't at least try to see the other point of view and THEN argue after seeing that standpoint rather than just jumping to "my side is correct and you're an ignorant prick" cuz duh most people are ignorant pricks THAT'S WHY IT'S A DEBATE YO!! lol i just refuse to believe that ppl are shitty for the sole purpose of being shitty, AHHH i just remembered a great quote "everyone thinks they're being reasonable", so calling them dumb turds only pushes them further into a state of I'm right and my opinion is supreme

lol anyways, it's just that before I used to think that the majority of the people in the world were pretty darn good and there were just a few bad ones here and there to even shit out, however it turns out most ppl are just out here being hateful and shit. i wonder if it's exclusively a societal problem that we're in an awkward stage of moving past or if it's a human thing that will always be present.

not really sure what im doing bUT
feel free to message me whatever tho cuz i aint doing -nada-

Anyways have this:
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