oh my god, i messed up, i feel like a totally asshole and jerk, im so dumb, i messed up my one and only chance to fix my friendship with this girl and fucked it up, now we're not friends and i feel like trash, i dont understand why i have to be such an idiot all the time, i wish i could just shut up, im so dumb, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, im such a fool. i love her so much but i cannot fix what has been done, i ended our friendship thats been going on for a strong 4 years but what i had said and did was such a stupid move, oh my god, please i just want her back but i cant, she built walls and i dont think i can get through those walls, it took my months to get through them and actually know her but now, she cant even trust me with her emotions, im such a dick to all my good and non toxic friends, why, why me? why did i have to be the idiot? i feel like totally shit because she ignored me for weeks and never told me why she was mad but 2day i did, oh my god, am i a complete ass, im so dumb, i miss her so much tho, but whats been done cant be undone. i feel sick, im so done with myself, i do this every damn time, oh my god, please, why me? why? why? why? whatever im just an idiot

i just told everyone in my math class to suck my dick, god, i hate everyone here

i feel as if they all hate him and are only talking to me because they feel bad :/

im sitting in class right now and i really want to leave, im so done and sick of this place it starting to hurt,, a lot. ive lost a mass majority of my friends and anyone who i ever cared for, i feel as if im only going to school to make my parents proud of me but at the end of the day, they really just dont care, im building up so many emotions and feelings and becoming a dick towards everyone and i dont mean to but it just happens, i dont like being known as the rude and arrogant bitch, who has no feelings or remorse to anyone, anyways does anyone know what i can do to stop this madness and actually help my mental state?