I WAS UPDATING MY PROFILE CONCERNING MY DISCORD AND IT REMOVED EVERYTHING UNIQUE ABOUT MY (BARELY) CUSTOMIZED CSS FROM XXEMO_BITCHXX SO YEAH IM ON THE VERGE OF TEARS IM SO SORRY IF YOU DONT RECOGNIZE MY PROFILE OR SOMETHING ILL WORK ON GETTING IT BACK OH MY GOD IM GONNA CRY HAHA

wow uh so, im fucking hot. you guys should see. (but like actually ik this is common decency but pls try and avoid sexualization of any sort!! it makes me v uncomfy :c)

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anyways besides this, why does myspace feel so crowded now :< this has felt like an issue since like october but its just overwhelming to be here anymore bc i think it went viral on instagram or something:/ im so sorry i havent been active lately, ill try to make up for it in the future! love u all! o((>ω< ))o

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life has been going great lately, i finally got the opportunity to be with the only person i care about on october 31st. so yes, not only did i fall in love in october but OUR ANNIVERSARY WOULD BE ON HALLOWEENFBNHDHF. shes one of the like 4 people i keep in constant contact with, and i am perfectly content with just that. life has been great in my opinion, but of course theres always the dreadful real world, im losing people in my life over petty disagreements left and right, and my mom and dad both agonize me, no matter how far my father is, he even finds a way to. my mom has just taken all of my money along with both of my phones now, i have zero contact with my girlfriend and im in constant fear of my mom going through my phone, and me ending up being out to her before im comfortable with doing so. im deathly afraid of her taking all my contact away from the one person keeping me sane, the one keeping me happy. im afraid. i dont wanna feel lonely again. im so scared of falling deeper into this endless pit i jumped into. i finally got the chance to be happy and it took completely neglecting and ignoring "priorities" that wont matter in 10 years anyways, considering the likelihood of me even being alive by then, and now im being punished for that. im so so tired of being treated this way by my parents, both of them. i feel like im just a pawn to my father, and just an expense and nuisance that was meant to be a trophy to my mom. ive been 3 weeks clean, i dont want that to change. i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont. i dont want it to. im trying my hardest, i was planning on posting a happy blog about how good my life has been going until half an hour ago. my mom has been blaming me for every inconvenience in HER life and im afraid shes gonna snap even though the only thing genuinely deteriorating is MY mental health.im so so so done with this life. i want an escape without hurting anyone, what will even happen if i die? please dont respond to this, im very overwhelmed and i just need a place to let this out for now. please understand this is the only coping i have and respect that. i love you all.

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TW// MENTIONS OF R*LAPSING

hey you guys, ive been going through a bit right now. i know i havent been very active lately but that lack of activity might worsen. im at my lowest mental point right now. its supposed to be my birthday today, meaning the ONLY day of the year i ever feel cared about, important, or loved, but my mom decided that since im "failing" another class (i have a fucking B??????), she yet again took my only form of communication with the people closest to me,,, ive been trying to avoid relapsing again but i might not be able to help it. ive been looking for alternatives all day so its fine! idk why im telling you all this but you can just ignore it, i need somewhere to let it out and this is where i feel most comfortable. i hope you all feel better if youre going through something too! i love you all SO SO MUCH, ill be back, i just need to mentally heal. ill be back!~

lets catch up! i cleared most of my blogs out and i havent gotten to talk here in a bit anyways!!
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ive been in a really tough spot recently and im barely grasping onto life itself, and i want all of you that are going through the same to know that YOU CAN PUSH THROUGH IT. now that we've come to that, my birthday is coming up soon. im thinking of coming out but i dont know how to do it, im not sure my family will even accept me. im a bit afraid in all honesty. but my contact is being cut off from everyone i know, my mom took both of my phones because im failing biology, the teacher will call my mom before she even bothers to talk to ME about the issues in the first place. im in love with a girl thats in love with someone else and i dont know how to healthily process these emotions, i want to support her and encourage her to ask out the girl she likes because i dont want to be greedy or shoot down the strong friendship we already have. so how are yall, i wanna know how you all are doing as well! i love you bunches guys, this site helped me through my worst possible state, so dont think i dont care at the slightest, i have made some genuine friends here and i hope to make more so please please please let me help you through your problems. i love you guys.

EXTREME TW// S⭑LF H⭑RM

hey guys! im starting this off by saying NOT TO READ THIS if topics involving s⭑icidal actions or c⭑tting affect you, and im sorry if i cant tw well but i hope this will do. its been roughly 8 weeks that ive been self harm free and i am INCREDIBLY proud of that, but a few days ago i was going through a bit of an “episode” caused by hypersensitivity to a topic involving someones death ive perceived as my fault. i know i was active for little to no time on here that day. i was sitting in the shower and had placed two large c*ts on the side of my left thigh. i have no clue who to talk to about this, my therapist doesnt even know i self harm in the first place. im only saying something about this because i dont know who to talk to or what to do about it. i dont want to be accused of being an attention seeker, not at all. i havent talked to ANYONE i know irl because im afraid that if i do ill be slandered for looking for attention or being overly dramatic. im just searching for help. if theres anything you guys know i can do i would greatly appreciate it. this site is like an outlet for me, a safe space, and id just want you all to know to check up on your friends! all of them! if theres any sign anyones in any low spirits at all PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE just at least say a little “hi! is everything okay? do you want to talk?” OR SOMETHING PLEASE. it could DETERMINE SOMEONES LIFE. if you know someone lost someone important, or if theyve been through a traumatic past, or even if they seem completely fine to u PLEASE CHECK IN. i love you all!! please contact me if you yourself are going through something and i would be more than happy to help you in any way that i can. im so so so sincerely sorry to anyone who has been through anything of the sort, i promise u, it WILL get better, dont give up just yet. even if the hour of the night is UNGODLY, message my discord and tell me what youre going through! i will do the best i can to help you get through it. im serious, you deserve so much. dont ever think otherwise.

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haha im kinda weirded out by saying this myself but ^^;

I JUST HIT 1000 FWIENDS OH MY GOD >.< I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FUCKERS AND YOU ALL DESERVE HUGS PLS I JUST WANNA
I JUST WANNA CRY HAHA I THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE SITES ID END UP ISOLATED ON BUT YOU GUYS ARE ALL ACTUALLY SO SWEET AND IVE MADE ACTUAL GOOD FRIENDS THROUGHOUT THIS JOURNEY AAAAAAAAAAAA PLS JUST HUG URSELF FOR ME OR SOMETHING GOODBYE I LITERALLY LOVE U ALL SO FUCKING MUCH