youre gone
you left

you said youd never leave
why did you leave

why
why
why

i cant bear it
i want you.

youre my person
you understand me
you make me feel better about myself

why did you leave

why this way

i love you

drugs
drugs
drugs

i want to be dependant on something to give me happiness

i want it to love me as much id love it
every sniff
huff
pierce

i keep going
more
more

i cant get over this feeling

MORE

...

its all gone wrong

i cant feel

my heart is none existent by its speed

blood

sleep

in my dreams, i fall in love
my own interpretations
pull me deep down
into a glass of chemicals

dont inhale

i love attention
its so scary
i cant breathe
and my eyes sparkle

drowning

i am loved
but i do not feel loved

they all want me
my eyes
my hair
my body
my face

me?

i have nothing to look forward to

so bored....

i hang out with people who give me intrusive thoughts

blood
blood
blood
blood

i love you
i love someone

theyre so nice to me

i want to hurt them
but i love them
i want to see them in pain

music heals me
music is good
i love
but sometimes
i cant find music that connects with my soul

my soul
slowly drifting with no destination

i am lonely
but im not alone

i am jealous
so bad that.. nevermind

i love you
i think

im scared i'll lose my personality

it happens alot
when i stop being that fun bubbly weirdo
and slowly
stop
and im watching myself stop but i cant stop it.

i love you