i had an entire 3 paragraph apology? typed out and when i clicked post the whole thing was deleted because myspace is a bitch and logged me out. anyway a dramatic 3 paragraph apology isn't the way to go anyway. i have a lot of problems and i have no self control, and i ignored my issues and i ignored all signs of "hey this is bad. stop" (i also can't always tell where the lines of rude vs ok and this is ok vs stop doing it are.) i continue to ignore my extreme social/emotional problems and dump them onto everyone. partially out of anger at people who do it to me. no, i don't wanna hear about your dead dad. i came to talk to you about the zodiac killer case. so then i'm like "to get back at The Society We Live In, i'm going to make everyone listen to my problems so they know how i feel when people do it to me." so basically i am an elementary school bully. it probably gets a lot deeper than that, but i don't like thinking. i do enjoy trying to find the absolute root of all problems though. anyway, i'm sorry to trollbox members (outside of the abuser) for crimes of elementary school bullying. i know this apology is filled with jokes, (or "jokes" if your sense of humor isn't absolutely eroded like mine is) but i am seriously sorry. humor is just the easiest way for me to get things across or something. soon i'll be talking to one of my doctors (psychologist? psychiatrist? i don't know) about these problems. it can take me a long time and some big mistakes to realize that i have some of the issues i have. i'm not sure what else to say besides mental illness isn't an excuse for being an asshole. i have to learn to not ignore my issues so that they won't contribute to me being a bitch. until i'm sure i'll be able to interact with strangers in a way that won't be harmful, i'll stay away from all windows93 stuff. i might go to the actual site to play solitaire and do that maze 1000 times but that's different ok. sorry if this apology sucks i still don't know where the social boundaries are. peace and love and fucking whatever. ballcocks. jake out

i despise this website. it does nothing for me but exist as a constant reminder of ~trauma~ and i'm not gonna be active much anymore. if you like me THAT MUCH, follow me on twitter i guess @squishydonnie. i probably won't accept ur request but it's worth a try. fuck this website and FUCK YOU RYAN!!!!!!!!!!!

so i associate this site with the man who abused me and it's a mild trigger to be on here, that's why i'm not very active. i am alive and well. i have supportive people in my life who are helping me. i'm not gonna be active here as much because i don't like thinking about my abuser. if you like jake gyllenhaal, you can follow me on twitter @sleepiedarko.

hello friends, recently it has come to my attention that there is someone here who is very, very dangerous. he is a manipulative liar. he is likely an 18 year old man who posed as a 15 year old to be in a "relationship" with me, an actual, vulnerable, 15 year old boy. he lied about committing suicide on here to guilt me. i was hurt and violated by this man. he has many accounts here. his accounts (that i know of) are 2002demo, ryan, panic! at the disco, hypnoblood, and gloomy. he is avoiding me and my friend who are trying to figure out why he did what he did. please help me bring this man to justice. please listen to me.

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pilot kelson is gay

shit. i'm currently eating bunny grams (teddy grams for kids who have hippie moms) and regretting my life choices while also knowing i made the right choices. ughhhhhhhh luckily Detective David Wayne Loki has me in his imaginary arms

i watched bubble boy today. most people find it terrible but it made me happy. i love jimmy and his stupid voice and his stupid bubble. i also watched highway. it was definitely weird and i fucking hate cassie because pilot CLEARLY has feelings for jack. a movie like donnie darko is one where i rub my gay little hands all over it, but highway was already gay. anyway cassie fucks out and then pilot and jack love each other and that's what happened because heterosexuality is weird

almost nothing makes me happier than snuggling with my little donnie figurine. i can just feel the love radiating off of him. i can just tell that he's happy. i just love him so much!!! he's so adorable and he babie,, i love being a dad