does anyone else just have the urge to draw something even though you have to get shit done but still go get out a piece of paper and a pen and just start drawing to your heart's content but then all of a sudden ur just filled with dread and hatred for what you just created on that goddamn sheet of paper and you just lose all ur confidence over it and you don't feel like continuing anything else but ur busy and you have to but you end up doing nothing and just question urself and everything else and then you go to sleep and wake up like nothing ever fucking happened and you repeat that cycle for 7 fucking years and do absolutely nothing to stop it so it just keeps happening? or is that just me?