a rant cus im sad and life hard

i know my page isnt finished and no one cares about my life but i can hear my brother listening to one of those homophobic christian anti trans ads about how testosteron coud affect a "fenmale" body i know this isnt the right way to say the stuff im about to say/sayng but my heart is just bouncing off clouds but not like when u look at a cute yuri/yaoi scene full of fluff but like when ur about to take a test u havent studyed and i hate everithing right now i wanna rant but i dont know about what, i dont fell like making art (cus my art that made to uhm rant?? looks well like im in the middle of a panic attack and i have depression, the creepypasta kid crazy but actually kinda sad yknow i dont fell like crying over a piece of paper whit three tits on it thats covered in words i cant read anymore yaknow?) sooooooo im gonna say a few bad expiriences that i need to get off my chest hoping it makes me fell better even tho im probably not gonna post this...

1. when i came aut my sister recomanded me a book called "the trans craze and how it affects our daughters" or something like that and then whennnnnn i like yaknow said i wasnt actualy coming aut i was tring to reach for help fregarding my gender identiti she directed me to my brother and then they both said that that shits wack and is just a stereotype (witch is a way to put it but a little harsh for someon who forgived the religious excuse for slavery yaknow) thwn a few days latter or i dont remmember when actualy my mom and i got into a fight for some reason anddddddd as usual i was going trught my fathers cds becayse that is what i did as a child to calm down and i nedded to calm down my mom nedded to go to the store and asked me if i wanted something i felt bad and i said nothing and she just lashed aut at me she just put me to the ground and started screaming at me about the lord and how i need to turn to him yada yada i dont remmember the expirience (pretty taumatizing if u ask me but hey there are people who have it worese right?) so aniway thats all i have for today if enyone needs to relate to or fell like theyr not alone please dm me i may respond late but if im lonley and ur lonley lets chat maybe we cand fell less lonley...
   Anyway sorry for wasting time byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee