My Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/haileywave?si=0E82TMp9RvGIXJ3M5jmh8w

I like pretty much everything other than country, classical, and classic rock. Some of my favorite genres are punk, hyper pop, and what could probably be classified as scene.

My top 13 songs in the last 4 weeks according to statsforspotify.com

1. Cooler Than Me
2. Can I have a Ride Home? I'm at a Party and I Don't Know Any1
3. Seventeen
4. Riot
5. Marlboro Nights
6. Rant
7. Montero
8. Bitch
9. Pretty Cvnt
10. Everybody Talks
11. Looking Out for You
12. I Wish I Was A Riot Grrrl
13. Dream Girl

My top 13 Artists in the last 4 weeks according to statsforspotify.com

1. Cavetown
2. Sewerslvt
3. Hollywood Undead
4. Lady Gaga
5. Descendents
6. Destroy Boys
7. IC3PEAK
8. Bo Burnham
9. Sex Pistols
10. Bikini Kill
11. Nirvana
12. Melanie Martinez
13. 3OH!3

Some of my favorite playlists:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7n6vrxHx3SR9didPLtCBuX?si=rZsZEwSyTYmDwZrRCt5Vcg

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1DX3LDIBRoaCDQ?si=d5SMzIaTR9uNYP3BrweqdA

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4AVKhrH1qZDRtO6kQgGEMi?si=yrhV17hGS-WVFnu7FCIZiA

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2EQkWmfnNJZ86PYkpnGH7C?si=aT6J0GkRRI-9eDnG_4YoOA

Hello!! This is me ranking my top 10 kins from highest to lowest. If you have some of the same kins, you should comment or message me! I'd love to be friends <3

1. Violet Evergarden (Violet Evergaden)

2. L (Death Note)

3. Edward Mason (Angels of Death)

4. Kyoko Kirigiri (Danganronpa)

5. Richie Toizer (It)

6. Riko (Made in Abyss)

7. Celeste (Danganronpa)

8. Misa Amane (Death Note)

9. Martha (Identity V)

10. Widowmaker (Overwatch)

4/19/2021
11:34 PM

Oh boy today was wow. My mood went from okay to reaallllyyyy bad. I hate days like this that end bad. I wish that they started bad and ended good. I made a new friend today but then I started to feel really sad and dysphoric and I really didn't want to talk to anyone. But then my other really good friend told me about how awful of a day they were having and I had to help them. I hate when they get in those moods because there's never anything I can do about it. Nothing I say gets to him and it makes me really stressed and sad. Every time he gets in one of his moods it pretty much ruins my whole day. I love him a lot though so I can't just not do anything about it. Plus a lot of the time he does make me really happy. It still just feels like I'm giving a lot more then I'm getting though. Also school is stressing me out. I have a B and a B- which is really scary. Everytime I'm happy is the same time when I stop focusing as much on school but then my grades start to slip and I get sad again because I have to go back to focusing on school. I wish that I didn't automatically assume people hated me after they didnt talk to me for a day. I need people to need me but I'm just not really getting enough of that. All in all, today wasn't the worst day ever so it's okay.

Here's some photos:
https://64.media.tumblr.com/a9088073bf83ea3278133a7f9f32e706/4ca785078be169a0-e7/s500x750/ab3217ac4cf044842d0bcf3fce966cbc4c0064f3.jpg
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4/20/2021 - 5/4/2021
8:57 AM

It's been like two weeks and quite a bit has happened but I just didn't really know how to write about it. Basically, I've raised my grades in school, I just have to get my two B+'s back up into A's and my mom pulled me out of the MAP test so school is kinda taken care of. Like a week ago on about the 26th of April, my mom took my phone away because she heard me tell my friend about something she said. Then she said she didn't say it and was hurt and "dint trust her own daughter" or some shit. The thing she had said had been something transphobic. And then she said she didn't say it. But I really thought she had. So than she took away my phone and laptop and told me the person I had been speaking to was a "bad influence" and said I couldn't talk to them anymore because she had been listening in on our conversation and had heard my friend respond to what I said with "She had no right to say that." Also like two days ago on the 2nd me and this guy started dating so thats cool. I really do like him a lot. I think that over all I'm doing okay.

Here's some photos:
https://64.media.tumblr.com/c22a05605108d7134a3f413ba00a7e1d/tumblr_pbvxsxI5mc1qdkz98o3_640.jpg
https://64.media.tumblr.com/13a09108658738a6765b340d6902b2df/tumblr_p43pftCLuM1w78ln1o1_640.jpg

5/11/2021
12:55

TW// Self harm
I’m so dysphoric. I want my boobs gone. I want them off my body. I hate this. I almost cut them off myself yesterday but it would probably look like shit so I didn’t. Instead, I just cut on them. All the way around them both and on top mostly and a bit on the bottom. It was so bad and bleeding. I had to put my bra back on and it keeps rubbing against them. I’m so sick of living in this body that dosent feel like mine. I’m so tired of this. My bf is cool and I love him a lot. He’s just been going through a lot lately and there’s nothing I can do about it to help him. I got my grades back up. Both my Bs are now A-s. So I now have all As and 3 of them are A-s but it’s still not good enough. Everything is so stressful and tiring. I only have about a month left until I graduate middle school. I don’t want to graduate, I don’t want to hear my stupid birth name. I’m so tired.

5/29/2021
2:02 am on the 30th

Today was extremely bad.

8. Japan Sinks 2020

   Where I watched it: Netflix

   I didn't really know where to put this one since my feelings on it are pretty mixed. Some moments in it are so brilliant and moving and emotional and engaging and everything works so well together from the colors to the animation, and it just has some truly amazing scenes however the rest of it isn't as good. Don't get me wrong, as a whole, it's still pretty good but the really memorable scenes leave you expecting so much more and then you don't get that even if it's still good. I did however love the way the scenery looks, the buildings and greenery and are amazing to look at and it stays that way throughout. So, all in all, it was pretty good, and it was nice to watch the first time around, but I doubt it's something I'll go back to and rewatch.

9. Erased

Where I watched it: Netflix

The beginning and middle were brilliant, and everything was amazing, and I loved the plot and art and characters and character designs and the story it set up and all of it was going so well and it was memorable and good but then I got to the end and I was just so disappointed. The end was such a big letdown to me. If it had been different, I think this could've gotten in the top 5 but the end just really messed things up for me.

10. Sailor Moon

Where I watched it: I had watched it on Viz but it's no longer available on there.

I was never able to finish this because of the abundance of episodes since it's been going on for years however, I still like it enough. It wasn't terribly engaging and was pretty repetitive, so I had been falling asleep to it for a while. I really like the character designs and art and I think that it really stuck with me since Sailor Moon was my first anime. I like how all of the characters really do have their own personality and they sometimes clash with each other. A lot of the time, the interactions feel genuine and realistic because the characters have been made to have such a fleshed-out personality. For lack of a better word, it's wholesome and things aren't ever really solved with violence which is a nice change.

1. Violet Evergarden

   Where I watched it: Netflix

   Violet Evergarden was such a treat to watch, the art is gorgeous and is so nice to look at. I love all of the character designs very much. It was very moving, and I think I cried more than twice while watching it. It was incredibly memorable and really stuck with me. I loved the plot and it had the perfect mix of action and emotion. The way it does a perfect job of sometimes having an incredibly somber mood and at other times being so overwhelmingly heart warming. I would definitely recommend it ♡

2. Made In Abyss

   Where I watched it: I may or may not have bootlegged it but I guess we'll never know.

   Made In Abyss was the second manga I ever read. Even now, it's still one of my favorites. The anime was so beautiful and detailed, and the colors were so gorgeous. I believe this one made me cry once, maybe twice. I love how horrifying some of the scenes are and the art does such a good job of conveying the emotion and mood.

3. Parasyte

   Where I watched it: Netflix

   I remember this keeping me up all night as I tried to finish it. It was so attention grabbing and I couldn't stop watching. It was so thrilling, and the intense parts hit me so hard. I also really liked the art; I think that the style worked very well with the action. I liked the character dynamics and interactions a lot, I thought they were well fleshed out and seemed realistic.

4. Death Note

   Where I watched it: Netflix

   This one is pretty popular already so I'm assuming if you haven't watched it yourself you've at least heard of it especially since Netflix did that live action remake. I love the color palette that's used in this and how much it works with the mood and overall tone. The darker color scheme really works to draw out the edgy tones of the content itself. The characters are interesting to watch, and I liked watching them interact. It's incredibly engaging and I believe it was the third anime I ever watched yet it still sticks with me so much because of how memorable it is.

5. Angels of Death

   Where I watched it: I may or may not have boot legged it but I guess we'll never know.

   The character designs the art the colors the plot the emotion the intensity the story everything about this was so almost perfect. However, even though it wasn't completely perfect, it was still amazing, and I liked it a lot. I love the character designs and how well each design shows the characters personality. I love the story of it so much and the intensity and it's all just so engaging I couldn't look away. I loved everything about it so much and almost wanted to put it higher but ultimately, I liked the other ones more. Still, Angels of Death is one of my favorites and I think it'll stay that way for a while.

6. Haikyuu

   Where I watched it: Netflix

   It's energetic and the characters make me happy. It's a big comfort anime for me. I like the bright colors and I like the way that the characters are drawn. It cheers me up a lot and I'd like to rewatch the whole thing sometime soon. Usually, I don't like sport anime's but this one still got into my top 10.

7. Danganronpa

Where I watched it: I may or may not have boot legged it but I guess we’ll never know.

The anime is pretty good but the fanbase is such a mess. I feel like I can't talk about it without at least mentioning the fanbase once. As for the anime itself, I love love love love the character designs and how much you can tell about the characters based on their designs and outfits alone. I feel like they all really do have their own personality's and I like that a lot. I like the contrasts and how it can go from bright colors to a lot duller of a color scheme and how well the colors match the moods. I enjoy watching the characters interact and their relationships with each other feel genuine. I enjoy the story as well.

3/28/2021 - 4/3/2021

This week was over all pretty nice. My emotions feel kinda jumbled but for the most part I'm doing pretty well. Not much happened this week at least as far as I can remember. School was a bit stressful because I'm bad at managing my time. I really like my haircut, this is probably the closest I'll get to "fluffy gamer boy hair" for a while since my mom didn't like any of my other hair references. Life is pretty mundane and I'm okay with that.

Here's some photos I enjoy:
https://64.media.tumblr.com/c7fac90f43da843ee0d4e8efe6c666b3/414cf21e0e760b35-fa/s500x750/38d23e947010bc6073076da13aa1fbfa02c57c59.jpg https://64.media.tumblr.com/44c5b45d7ca8afa036e5449149548b1d/tumblr_p8w255M6171u7tve5o1_500.jpg

4/6/2021
10:33 PM

I feel shitty. Today was rough but it kinda feels like I say that about every day. The gender dysphoria hit me so hard today and I thought I was going to throw up. I'm tired but I can't seem to fall asleep. Im to anxious and worried something bad is going to happen as soon as I close my eyes. Earlier today I was struggling a lot and nothing felt real. My friend tried to help by telling me to do "reality checks" where in I make sure my hand has 5 fingers. It's been getting more frequent and there's definitely something wrong with me but as I'm still able to function properly, I dont think its worth bringing up to my parents. I feel so alone and I feel like I give so much more then I get. I've been trying to help my friends and let them vent to me which would be fine but that's all it is anymore. There's no friendship or happiness it's just me trying to convince them of things that I know they'll never believe.
Current music I'm listening to: The Sewer//slvt album
Here's some photos:
https://64.media.tumblr.com/63f8c59ade2a0a28d78b4c7fbafa82c3/tumblr_pkkd99odH71sywf0oo1_500.png
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4/7/2021 - 4/10/2021
12:48am

I think I'm doing pretty well!! Things still feel distant sometimes and I still think there's something wrong with me but I have more friends now and they all make me happy. Things are pretty., idk bumpy I guess? Lots of ups and downs. 4/6/2021 was pretty low but I've just gotten better since then so I guess it's okay. School is still pretty stressful. I find myself longing to go back to about 2015 ish. I wanna hit all the phases that I never really got to experience due to circumstances. I was on tiktok the other day and saw a video that said "POV: your 11 and creating an edgy backstory for your wolf OC" and I remember having known lots of people who did that but I never did. I find myself wishing I had even though most people would look back on that and cll it cringe. I find myself wanting to go back to just laying on my floor watching DanTDM videos with my brother. Things weren't great back then but they were nice and I want to go back and have all of the experiences that I missed. And ultimately, even if I can't truly turn back time, who's to stop me from going through those phases now? Idk I'm pretty bored rn, maybe I'll go make my first wolf OC.

Here's some photos I enjoy:
https://64.media.tumblr.com/a58a09cabd00f04decd45f44cd40c2e2/tumblr_plcxk1qdeh1rykw0b_500.jpg
https://64.media.tumblr.com/6ce49fbfc03d191663b472fb2c16dc3f/14706906c7fc05bb-53/s500x750/4ecfc282194141bf77257acd3fcc1987752f1e51.jpg

4/11/2021 - 4/18/2021

Not much really happened. Most of these days were either okay or went from good to bad. I do think things were pretty good for the most part though. My grades are kinda slipping which is really scary. Also I meant my new counselor therapist person for the first time. He seems cool. He told me to stop worrying about how other people are gonna see me and said that if I figure things out for myself first and then start presenting myself how i want other people to see me, then that's how they'll see me. He also told me to write a paragraph introducing me to myself.

Hello! I thought I'd post some of my favorite kandi and some tips for making kandi since I've been doing it for a while!!

https://imgur.com/PE12ftA

✰ Tips ✰

• When making 3D cuffs, I'd recommend making the x-base with stretchy string and making everything else with fishing line.
• This might sound basic, but don't be afraid to make mistakes! Cuffs are hard to make, especially if you don't have a lot of practice yet.
• If your having trouble tying off fishing line, I'd recommend adding glue to it.
• Using the orange cow cuff in the image as an example, when I put things like that cow on to cuffs, I use a thinner string and put it threw a sewing needle. Then you just stab it and do essentially what you do when sewing fabric. I went threw that cow on the cuff 4 times, looping it around the beads each time and then tied it off and added glue.

♡ Some useful sources for kandi tutorials and inspo ♡

-https://kandipatterns.com/ (Has patterns for cuffs, tutorials for x-bases and lot of other types of kandi, perler patterns, and charm tutorials!)

-VickysKandiShoppe on Youtube! (So many tutorials! Super helpful and easy to follow.)

-Ginger Cand-e on Youtube! (Lots of tutorials, also super helpful and easy to follow.)

<3 PLUR <3