about me ig :)

hello shawtys!

i am doing an about me because why the fuck not

i am japanese/portuguese :) my dad is japanese, my biological mum is portuguese

i was born in the netherlands to a prostitute who did not want me and gave me away to the guy who impregnanted her, aka my dad

with a not-so-thrilled dad and a confused new mum, we moved to england

at age 3, my parents finally confronted how i came into existence and they divorced :(

my dad being an absolute douche left me with my mum who was !not! a uk citizen and struggled to maintain citizenship

in year 2, we moved to japan where we lived with her sister who is very gay and accepted me as part of the family :)

finally, my mum got uk citizenship and we moved back to england to meet my dad who finally wanted to see me again

i lived with him for a week before being severely abused and sent to lived with my non-biological grandparents in the states, during which my parents held out a child abuse case for which my dad won

after returning, i continued to go back-and-forth between the houses of a financially struggling woman who was not my biological mother and a stoned dj who did not want to take custody of me :D

my dad finally sobered up in year 6 and took a job in the us where he moved to but due to legal reasons, this forced my mum (who is a us citizen) to move with him

this is where i live now, continuing to go back-and-forth between a now homeless mum living with her parents "house" and a religiously confused owner of a failing business house in the middle of the worst state that produces the most bum fucking confusing headlines

soon, i will be 18. i will not be able to rewrite my story but i will be able to scribble over it until it looks like the mildly decent notes i used to take in english class while ignoring shakespear

i cannot ignore that i am a prostitutes son. i cannot ignore that my father does not love me. i cannot ignore that the woman who raised me is not my mother. but i can thank them for their time and move on with the 50+ years i might have left. thats a long time

life isnt disney. ive learned that well. but its dumpster fire in an alley way that illuinates walls for which enclose it

my depression is severe and my social anxiety is even worse. but who am i to complain :)

thats all for now! ig