THE YEAR IS 2015

Setting: in my room or driving around with my bf

Wearing: A white lacey dress, black boots, a cropped denim jacket, or my bfs t-shirt

Makeup and hair: Hair is mostly my natural brown and long, Winged eyeliner, brown eyeshadow, filled brows, red/orange lipstick

Listening to: Lana Del Rey, Grimes, BANKS, Tame Impala, Halsey, random trippy songs that i find.

Watching: Futurama, Primeval

Eating: Hot chips, spring rolls, the occasional smoothie

Drinking: Mountain Dew, water

Doing: getting high, skipping uni, playing ARK Survival, going on drives to the mountains or through the town

Thinking about: how i should probably catch up on uni work

THE YEAR IS 2014

Setting: in my uni house room, or on the train.

Wearing: Black short dress, floral fishnet stockings, black boots, red knitted sweater, black tattoo choker and thin choker with planet pendant, skull ring and vintage ring.

Makeup and hair: Hair growing long, down, naturally straight, coloured a dark-medium brown with a slight red highlight. Makeup grey eye-shadow, black winged eyeliner, brows lightly/roughly pencilled.

Listening to: Ultraviolence - Lana Del Rey, Grimes, BANKS, Nostalghia, Digital Daggers, Sky Ferreira, Twenty One Pilots

Watching: Skins season 3 & 4, Game of Thrones season 3 & 4.

Eating: Hot chips, salt & vinegar chips, avocado sushi.

Drinking: Miso soup and alo vera drink.

Doing: Scrolling down tumblr on my cracked ipod touch without internet, using my phone data, texting on my Nokia brick touch screen, trying to study on my Lenovo laptop at the desk in my room.

Thinking about: how much pain I am in

The year is 2013

Setting: in my room, or downstairs at my study desk

Wearing: a loose singlet with a spiritual/hippie pattern on it, and a hoodie over the top. Galaxy track pants and fluffy socks.

Makeup and hair: Hair shoulder-length or shorter. Full fringe messy. Light makeup, if any, and mostly just brown or grey eyeliner

Listening to: Cosmos remix, Lana Del Rey Born to Die and Paradise songs, Curve, Crystal Castles, tame impala

Watching: Adventure time, Skins

Eating: Milo mixed with golden syrup, homemade sherbet, or yoghurt

Drinking: malt/hot chocolate

Doing: Scrolling down tumblr on my school laptop, looking through galaxy/space/spiritual pics and printing out picture that inspire me to stick on the wall. Talking to someone online about spirituality and indigo children/starseeds.

Thinking about: how i miss someone, and just trying to find myself, enjoying my newfound spirituality and spiritual community.

The year is

Setting: Chilling with my boyfriend

Wearing: A floral dress of some sort, long grey stockings, black boots, multiple necklaces

Makeup and hair: Hair is just long and down, probably messy, makeup was grey eyeliner and maybe mascara

Listening to: A Day to Remember, Bullet For My Valentine, Lana Del Rey's Born To Die album, Evanescence, The Birthday Massacre, Avenged Sevenfold, Garbage

Watching: Horror Movies, The Walking Dead

Eating: sandwiches

Drinking: mountain dew

Doing: Playing videogames, making out..., going on walks

Thinking about: how in love i am

The year is 2010

Setting: with family

Wearing: a skeleton hoodie, dark blue jeans, canvas shoes

Makeup and hair: some eyeliner, but minimal as I don't really wear much makeup yet

Listening to: Evanescence fallen & the open door albums, linkin park, paramore, my chemical romance, pop-punk bands

Watching: music videos

Eating: bbq shapes biscuits

Drinking: water

Doing: listening to music

Thinking about: how i hate everyone at school and feel like such an outcast

The year is 2011

Setting: on the school bus (free dress day)

Wearing: Black band shirt, black frilly skirt, long red and black striped socks and fake converse shoes, my bird skull necklace

Makeup and hair: Hair is long, now dyed to have red or purple highlights, tied in high pigtails with black and blue ribbons, maybe with a few braids hanging down around my face. Makeup is grey eyeliner with a bit of a cat eye, and some red eyeliner mixed in too.

Listening to: The Birthday Massacre, Evanescence (self-titled album), Madina Lake, Sonata Arctica, Nightwish, Within Temptation.

Watching: horror and thriller movies

Eating: maybe a packet of rice wheels (snacks) but keeping it lowkey as its on the bus

Drinking: water

Doing: listening to my purple ipod nano, or talking to a friend on the bus

Thinking about: How I hate catching the bus, just want to get home, finish homework and then mess around doing whatever I want in my room

The year is 2009

Setting: In my room

Wearing: A red and white striped long-sleeved shirt with a hood, denim shorts, moon charm necklace, lots of those bracelet bands

Makeup and hair: Hair is down and long, my natural dark brown. not much makeup, if any.

Listening to: Paramore, Linkin Park, or some more scene/emo bands I was getting into like Breathe Carolina or Black Veil Brides

Watching: Gossip Girl probably, or music videos on youtube

Eating: zooper doopers

Drinking: the melted part of the zooper doopers

Doing: Looking through myspace with my sister in secret because we weren't allowed to use it

Thinking about: a crush at school, how i wish i could buy more emo clothes, how i wish my parents would just let me hang out with friends without meeting their parents first.

1. What are you listening to right now, if anything?

Hanging Garden - Borrowed Eyes and it also just switched to Hanging Garden - Into That Good Night

2. What’s you always listen to till the end?

Edge of the World by Within Temptation

3. What is your favorite song?

Right now it's Shakin' Off The Rust by The Blue Stones. It's just so vibey. But my all time favourite is Superstition by The Birthday Massacre

4. Are there any songs that can or have made you cry?

The Birthday Massacre - Parallel World has made me cry, and usually does make me feel like it even if I don't

5. Do you have a shower playlist?

Just anything vibey, and loud enough to hear, like rock and electronic songs (Grimes, Nigh Club, etc)

6. What about a bedtime playlist?

I have a soft playlist to help me sleep on the plane. It consists of mostly Mazzy Star and instrumentals. But when I want to meditate I listen to 'fairy music' playlists on youtube haha.

7. Have any guilty pleasure bands or songs?

I have a playlist of the pop songs that I like. Most of them are from before 2010, when most of the top hits were actually good and didn’t all sound the same. It's my guilty pleasure because 'mainstream' people would be like "wtf you still listen to that?" if they heard me play it, when in reality songs that are only like 8 years old is NOT old in the rock/alternative community lol. Songs simply do not age.

8. What’s one song or band you used to like but now dislike?

Hmmmm, I don't openly dislike any artists, but I was not a huge fan of Avril's last album (Head Above Water), except I Fell In Love With The Devil, but I DO love her new feature with MOD SUN - Flames. I will always hardcore stan her older music though, especially The Best Damn Thing

9. What’s one song or band you used to dislike but now like?

Bring Me The Horizon! I couldn’t get into their first 3 albums, but now I definitely am and they're my favourite band with a male singer. Didn’t start noticing them more until That’s The Spirit, then I went back and listened to Sempiternal which is obviously amazing.

10. Do you sing along when you listen to music you like?

Yeah, but usually just around the house or in the car.

Pick 7 artists/bands that you love before reading the questions:

1.) The Birthday Massacre
2.) Evanescence
3.) Jazmin Bean
4.) Melanie Martinez
5.) Trees of Eternity
6.) Nightwish
7.) Digital Daggers

What was the first song you ever heard by 1?

(The Birthday Massacre) I think it was Looking Glass! My sister showed me the music video on youtube in 2010 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SREZ-ggSDjM) and we got so obsessed.

What is your favourite song of 7?

(Digital Daggers) Razor's Edge. A song I strongly relate too, plus it's got beautiful production and Andrea's voice is so nice.

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?

(The Birthday Massacre) A HUGE impact. My life changed completely because of discovering them, both personally and aesthetically. I began to look deeper into the corruption of the schooling system and other people while listening to their album Walking with Strangers. And generally, as I've grown older, I feel that all their albums have matched the theme of my life as they've been released. Their aesthetic is very colourful goth and that really inspired me, to the point where if I ever feel like I'm falling off track or losing who I am, I revisit the style I formed inspired by them and find myself at home again.

What are your favourite lyrics of 5?

(Trees of Eternity) Woah, like their entire album (Hour of the Nightingale). Basically all of the lyrics of Sinking Ships, and this line from the title track (about death, as this album was written as the singer was dying from cancer):

"Grief will haunt those who forget
That night is not the end
Embrace this as a nightingale in song"

How many times have you seen 4 live?

(Melanie Martinez) Actually never. I'm not sure I would go even if she did come here tbh. Not my crowd. I'm kinda a fan from a distance.

What is your favourite song by 6?

(Nightwish) "The Crow, the owl, the dove" and all of the instrumental tracks from Human :||: Nature

Is there a song by 3 that makes you sad?

(Jazmin Bean) Hmm, Yandere, but in a strange way. More that it just makes me feel A LOT, because it came to me at a time where my feelings were so intense, and I realised how much I cared about someone so hearing this song, I feel it 100%

What is your favourite song by 2?

(Evanescence) Wow, so many. This is so cliche but nothing will beat the level of Going Under. But more personally, I am closest to Lithium, All That I'm Living For and Together Again.

When did you first get into 5?

(Trees of Eternity) 2018. I found them in a playlist of songs like Nightwish - Dark Passion Play. I heard My Requiem first, then immediately listened to the rest of the album. I didn't know the singer, Aleah Starbridge, had actually died until a few weeks later.

How did you get into 3?

I found her (Jazmin Bean) song Worldwide Torture on spotify. I can't remember how, it must have come up on radio, but I loved it SO much, it's still my favourite by her. I listened to her other songs and loved them all too, plus her aesthetic is so cool.

What is your favourite song by 4?

(Melanite Martinez) Cake, Highschool Sweethearts, Pacify Her, Brain and Heart!

What is a good memory concerning 2?

(Evanescence) a) listening to them the most in high school, on the bus to and from school, and usually on my ipod nano before I went to sleep! It was so calming for some reason haha. b) when I saw their Synthesis concert! Best music experience I've ever had, I could almost cry.

Is there a song by 6 that makes you sad?

(Nightwish) Slow, Love, Slow makes me emotional at the end when it gets heavy for some reason. Taikatalvi makes me emotional too