la extraño mucho, en mi cabeza solo existe ella ni siquiera puedo sentirme mal por vivir de la forma miserable en la que lo hago prque incluso pienso en qeu si ella volviera mi vida mejoraria pero qn sabe tal vez deberia dejarlo de una vez por todas pero cuando mas piesno eso me regañp pq siento qeh las cosas aun pueden cambiar estyo mal

I'm tired of my life the worries only manage to asphyxiate me stronger and stronger to the point of having purple skin from resisting so much, I don't understand why since 25/04/20 my life became horrible in all aspects I only think about dying or that it's time to sleep because I can't stand all this situation anymore I know I'm an adult and that I must leave my fantasy world in which I lived so long but it's still difficult I can't stand it anymore

another thing that depresses me is MY AGE im feel old n useless all ma life i lived like a stone i think my family is starting to get tired of me i am afraid they will think i am lazy, i only have tlp but they will never understand because nobody believed my psychologist, so why should they believe me ?im 20 years old and im not doing anything for ma life but being on the internet and sleeping they might think why i dont go out and look for a job but to be honest people scare me

btw this song probably is the sndtrack of ma life =) https://open.spotify.com/track/5u2FOoFhp495GIj5BJC77J?si=j81E0bXcTbCqe788-PZkGQ

this is ma first time in myspace i wanna make a lot of friens n having fun n obviusly talk abt ma sadly life today has been a interesting day bc i discovered how much i hate myself no matter how much i exercise, the makeup i wear, if i dye my hair or the new clothes i bought depresses me to be this person but always around me i have ppl telling me im pretty but i only get angry bc i think they're lying anyway i hope my life doesnt end bc of the dysmorphic problem i have