first

this is was my first time. I really didn't think it would've gotten to this place. so much shit happened since Ig I was younger. It hurt only a little. it was actually kinda funny I used this one eyebrow razor and couldn't do shit lmao. After a lot of desperate digging, I found a scalpal my brother gave me lol. Thanks, big bro! I always doubted doing that would make people feel better. I'm really confused about how I feel tbh but I finally stop crying so ig I'm fine. I'm still confused by shit but ig I love her idk. I won't waste her time in telling her. I can't come out. well not until I can leave. he left me with them so I don't care about them anymore. even our brother wrote to fucking him of course. because he only left him. ik they care about him the most. I can't help but feel angry towards him but I feel guilty for it. It might just be me but i really wanted help and built the courage to kill hotline and i got hung up on lmao. i laughed for about 13 minutes then you know.