I’m alive

Bro so like yes I’m alive not that anybody asked but whatever keep that to yourself. Uhm I have a problem like I have friends and whatnot but when they leave me like when they say they will drop me I don’t feel anything yk? Like normally you would feel pain because you just lost a important person but when that happened to me like twice I felt nothing I just brushed it off and it hit me that I didn’t even feel pain nor sorrow. Maybe I didn’t like them idk?