GUUUYS I LIKE THIS GUY IN THE WRESTLING TEAM HRNMMMM
he came up to me and said hey alex i am al so i am half of you, and then i said then that means i am one of you, and he said yea so you gotta watch one piece now and i am like yea and you gotta watch madoka magica and plz i like him im too shy to even say more, maybe he was just being friendly,,,,, i dont know
hrrrrrmmmmmm

Originally I came to this site because I saw it on tik tok and it looked cool, I didn't know how to code so I asked a very dear friend of mine to help me, he as well joined this site. I always complain to him because he has made some friends on here and I have yet to make any. The reason for this he says and he made a cool little chart on it. The point is my page isn't one to be friends with as I originally made it for my idol Misa Amane. He suggested I make my page about me, here is the thing I hate myself and seeing as a page all about me doesn't look interesting at all. Anyways besides my yucky vent blog post I will talk about me on this post.
My name is Alex and I have a nickname only close friends call me, my favorite color is pink, I am 17, I like to read, I love art. I did ballet when I was younger. I am the worst at writing. I hate myself. I am really ugly which is why I enjoy the fact we have to wear masks now. I am not talented, I love to wrestle. I wrestle weight class 138! and I can lift 200 pounds!! I work very hard to stay fit in order to wrestle to the best of my ability. I like music and in genres, I am emo so emo music carries me, On the whole panic! thing only the old stuff is the good stuff same with blink 182, punk rock and riotgrrrl also I really love, and whatever weird music my dearest friend has shown me is also on the good stuff. He has great music taste. ME ME ME ok so I really like anime and hatusne miku, I cosplay but I don't do it too often because I don't have money for it. I like anything that has meat in it food wise.
I don't think I am intresting in the slightest and if it were me I would never dare be friends with myself. AHHHHHHH self love is so so hard. I do not think anyone is going to read this so I think that I like this, it is like talking to a wall. maybe next time Ill complain about how unlovable and horrible I feel. pffffft ok ALSO MY FAVE GAME IS IDV PLZ I NEED MORE IDV FRIENDS, like annie is coming out soon I NEED SOMEONE TO TEST HER OUT WITH, also also yea i love idv. IDV IS MY FAVORTIE, I HAVE SEEN THE STTAGEPLAY WE COULD TALK ABOUT IT, IILL draw you ur fave character, mine is norton!!!! Uhmmmm i bought edgar to get his limited skins but i never got them, if i had golden ratio i swear i would play as him i swear he wasnt a dumb purchase, and the new skin from season 15 ughhhhh i wish i still dont get it:{{

I woke up with the blinding lights of the ER room, the nurse was a bitch,

"its all hormones",

well fuck you too,

"have sweet dreams",

the paramedic was awfully nice, like a father saying goodnight to his child,

my thigh was burning and twitching, bleeding, it really hurt, my hands were stained in blood and i couldn't keep awake,

whisper spread,

"poor girl" call poison control"

I was tired, I wished I had just went to bed, maybe I wouldn't have woken up, I wish I hadn't

All my life has been is bullshit, what am How How why i feel if i was just dead I would be so so much better off, I wouldn't burden anyone else why can't they realize how toxic i am
killing yourself because you got dumped that the worst its so toxic and the guilt i feel is the worst my entire stomach churns and i just want to apologize beg for forgiveness something that was supposed to help everyone make everyone feel better just burdened them
ive picked up really bad habits, smoking is fun, the smoke engulfs my senses, i thought i would look really cool smoking a cigarette but in reality i looked extremly lame
i wish everyone would forget of my existence and find someone much better to replace me with,

a cute girlfriend, not mentally ill, beautiful, smart, confident

a best friend, there for you, someone who doesn't live far away, who actually is there for you

a friend, companion, everyone should find someone that can replace me, someone better, i it would be better for everyone, anyone

who even are you anymore, where you anyone to begin with
no shut up im sorry already
i am too much
sorry for everything
please move on
forget about me
im not worth your time you are the sweetest the best find someone who desrves it
afterall love is still love if it isnt reciporcated
ill be really happy still loving you its ok if its one sided i dont deserve anything more
i am lucky to love someone to begin with
i hate myself
i wish i could make a new identity someone who isnt me

its not like it will matter

goodnight my sweet child dont wake up again