It's freaking over bros...

Just made a home-made barbell and did 45 squats but had a fry-up and orange juice this morning. Now I feel ill. Lesson learned. Tomorrow I will have porridge and start my gains proper

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Please pray for me

I'm too lazy and retarded for a real job I need someone to spoonfeed me on how to code. I was OKAY at Papyrus on the Creation Kit but I'm probably rusty on that now. Someone spam me with tutorials. I need to also learn how to invest in crypto too

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UHHHHH BROS?!?!?!?!?!?! IS THIS REAL?!?!??!?! Are Aliens... dare I say... Among us?!

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I've been replaying Fallout 3 recently after so many years apart. What a game. I used to give Bethesda so much slack for deviating from the classics, but really it isn't actually all that different in most respects. The BoS is very much different but there's a reason for it, it's not so much a retcon as I thought it was. The outcasts show just how different the REAL BoS are from those in the Capitol. The gameplay is still so much fun, shooting, VATs (which was a stroke of genius to appease the classic fanboys), and the atmosphere, which is perfect retrofuturistic gothic. I plan on revisiting 1 and 2 soon, but first Clayton gifted me Planescape for Christmas so I will get around to that sooner rather than later. It's been in my recommended videos on YouTube for a while because I'm a big fan of Noah Caldwell-Gervais who does a lot of in-depth analytical looks at what makes games (the ones worth talking about) click. He also does some road trip videos which are comfy. Anyway, yeah so I will be playing Planescape too. I really love that old Infinity Engine vibe, quite nostalgic, despite me not growing up in the nineties.

Besides from that, nothing much has changed since my last blog post. I have a clearer sense of self than I did before. I don't praise lockdown, the opposite in-fact, but I appreciate the lessons that have bloomed from my time spent with it. It has given me cause for introspection and changed me a great deal for the better to be more appreciative, optimistic and to have a little bit more faith, spiritually, religiously and with myself. Past few days I've been looking into GATE and Hyperborea/Atlantis, I'm a huge fan of mysteries and the unexplained so if anyone wants to recommend me something to look into go ahead. Right now I'm doing my own research on Owls and how they pertain to psychopomps in history, and how symbolism is the universal language, and the similarities in separate cultures all having similar folklore.

Sorry for the delay in posts, I haven't forgotten about this place, I just haven't had anything noteworthy -- you could argue I still don't, to post here. Hopefully when restrictions lift I can post a little more often.

That is it for me from now, feel free to leave a comment and I hope you enjoy your Shrove Tuesday! Unfortunately no pancakes for me today as I've started Calorie Counting and my Mum won't let anyone make any because she's getting the house sorted and doesn't want it smelling of batter. Oh well.

Peace out!

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Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!

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Hope you all enjoy yourselves, and if you have close family, that every moment you spend with them is well-spent and filled with joy, and if you're not close to your family I hope you find solace and laughter with a surrogate. I will blog in the morning, see you then.

Love, M4x

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It's been so long since I've actually had an outside-of-college interaction with somebody. Lost contact with all local friends. This is all a load of bollocks.

I wanna be in someone's garden in the middle of the night listening to music and talking about shit, or walking in the streets with people under amber street lamps. Not that I did this that much before lockdown, but it's getting to me a bit, not to bare all, but I need to vent.

Hopefully once this finishes I can take a coach and meet online mates or go clubbing, invite college friends out and shit. But for now I'm stuck inside watching True Detective, listening to country music, and wracking my brain trying to write short-films.

I'd ask if anyone's feeling the same but I think everyone is, I can't believe February earliest this shit is ending, they're saying April now, I feel like I've lost a chunk of my best years. Although I have grown a lot this year, matured, I still wish I could wave a proper goodbye to my teenage years, here's hoping my twenties are a little more social. University on the Horizon, and then either a career in Teaching or trying to work my way up through the film industry, be it indie or Dodgywood.

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My Mum got COVID, she is doing well, I am having to self isolate unfortunately, but thankful I'll still be allowed to mix by the time Christmas arrives which means I can still stuff my face with pigs in blankets at my aunt's house. I'm glad she is alright, she felt rough for a few days but is now feeling better. I did say fuck it and gave her a hug, we have been living in the same house so if I were going to get it then I would anyway. Hope anyone who has had family with Covid or has had it themselves is okay. Here's to 2021 looking a little brighter, and hopefully mask free.

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Nocturnal Animals (2016)
When Dinosaurs Ruled the Earth (1970)
Elephant (2003)
Pandorum (2009)
Under the Silver Lake (2018)
Cosmos (2016)
Relics (2017)
Mission Impossible (3/7)
Harry Potter (2/8)
Sisters (1972)
David Lynch Filmography
Jacob's Ladder (1990)
Twin Peaks: The Missing Pieces (2014)
The Exorcism of Emily Rose (2005)
On The Silver Globe (1988)
Brazil (1985)
Kill List (2011)
The Ghoul (2016)
Only God Forgives (2013)
Lost River (2014)
Following (1998)

Open to suggestions, this blog will change all the time.