ahem- not me indirect posting 'cause i'm a coward

Hi guys!
I'm trying to build up a portfolio for video mixing/editing for cover artists or composers (or anything really, i just mostly do those) so that I can make money from it soon! I have years of experience using Final Cut Pro X (video editing program). Right now, I'll be doing them free of charge so please DM me on discord poltergeist#4810 or email me at polterghosted@gmail.com if you're interested. Feel free to ask me questions, I'll gladly give samples out as well.
Thank you!

it's been a while since i last opened myspace win93 but holy shit? my fwiend requests are fuckin booming, not sure if i can get through all of them quickly. i've been clicking accept for the past 10 minutes and i'm still not done, save me.

anyway, i've been uploading to youtube on and off for years now. kept deleting my covers throughout the years 'cause i never thought it was up to my own impossible standards. lowered the bar for myself a little so i'm going to be uploading consistently on the channel. please check out my latest video if you have the chance, it's the first cover i've been proud of in a while! <3 drop a sub and like while you're at it!! love u

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vm5k09qfaGw

just so y'all know where i've been the past month i've been gone though i'm pretty sure no one gives a fuck except me HAHA i've gotten into herpetology and entomology so i currently keep a bunch of bugs/insects in my room and possibly in the future, reptiles. ngl that's all i've been doing. studying.

here's a picture of my new jumping spider baby! her name's gwennie, please treat her nicely. she's afraid of legit everything, even the tiny worms i feed her. i believe she's a Plexippus paykulli female? not so sure but considering the climate in my country does live up to it's common name "Pantropical Jumping Spider" that might be it.
https://i.imgur.com/SNGV17p.jpg

hi i'm back! sending much love <3

random as fuck but the download speed can go die in a ditch. i've been trying to download genshin impact the whole day and this is where i'm at, not to mention i deleted a bunch of programs for this to fit. if this doesn't run on my computer, i'm yeeting myself out the window.

https://i.imgur.com/eU93zIL.png

just like the title of this blog, nothing special happened today! i'm just working on managing my older sister's youtube channel 'cause i'll be in charge of her thumbnails and most of the advertising shit. i've made thumbnail drafts and i hope she likes them!! i think it's obvious by now that i do a lot of graphic design and photo editing but not exactly artistic drawing.

oh yeah- i made an entirely new cover, recorded and edited today so it's fresh out of logic pro x. <3 hope y'all enjoy it. it's the japanese version of say so. doja cat and rainych have such beautiful voices and my voice can't even match up to that but i had fun singing so i hope y'all enjoy it as well!

link: https://soundcloud.com/poltergei5t/say-so-japanese-cover

edit: oh my god soundcloud i get these kinds of comments whenever i post a cover, fuck off with the spam.
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ok so i did the snapchat anime filter thing (excuse the bad camera)
https://i.imgur.com/mgHsRQO.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/mPJ4QsQ.jpg

and then i realized i look like the dead mom stereotype.
https://i.imgur.com/SU1gah3.png

TW: sexual assault
i'm sorry i've been ignoring some of y'all this week, i'm not in the right headspace and my DPDR's kinda getting worse by the day. i knew all along that my dad was a messed up person but i didn't want to admit it to myself so i kinda made my own reality in my naive little mind where my dad was still my superman. what kind of father tells his daughter that all men want is sex and that i should live with that? i have sexual trauma and this is how you treat me when i open up, fucking hell. then dad just goes and watches netflix movies with sexual assault in them in front of me and when i tell him to stop it 'cause it makes me uncomfortable, he just gets visibly angry at me.

ok i've been playing hordes.io for the whole day and all i can say is- if you steal my hard earned drops/loot one more time, i'm going to clock you. pvp bitch clap

my family was religious but at the same time not really years ago. i don't really know how to explain it? HAHA since i took my antidepressants, i was somehow able to remember a childhood memory that wasn't so bad but was still kind of odd. as a child, my parents would sometimes go to some kind of church store in the mall and buy me the communion bread/wafer thing as a snack.

y'know, this thing.
https://www.kold.com/resizer/ycG_U4lbXGqoIPX09vyMEcoS9V8=/1200x600/arc-anglerfish-arc2-prod-raycom.s3.amazonaws.com/public/OZUGD3CA5JB7BF6P6ONQXPFGCI.jpg

i don't know why but hey, that shit was crunchy and little me loved it. i kinda remember dunking it in soda (to be specific, i think it was sprite?) 'cause i was mimicking the part with the wine- whatever i haven't been to church ever since i graduated high school. the church in the philippines felt like an oven plus my old all girls catholic school made me fuckin hate the entire process 'cause the people who taught us were toxicaly strict thus making every student mentally unstable. but that's a whole other story for another blog.

anyway, back to the story at hand! my parents bought it for me one day so we could eat it in the cinema. (i'm not sure how it works in y'alls country but in mine, we can bring outside food in the movies) it just happened that my uncle that's a pastor was in the country for a visit, he lives with the rest of my relatives in the US. long story, giant family. so he came along with us to the movie. my dad and i kept eating the bread in front of my uncle pastor, my dad told me to eat it slowly so uncle wouldn't notice. pretty sure uncle did though. mom didn't want any part of it 'cause she was right next to him. so pretty much we ate the bread that's used for religious things next to a incredibly religious person.

bonus: i also remember my uncle pastor buying me a chibi sebastian (kuroshitsuji/black butler) plushie from the US even though he knew sebastian's a demon. i still have the plushie and i'd take a picture but my tiny legs and arms can't reach up my old anime collection shelf. found a picture of it on google though
https://s.pacn.ws/640/al/nendoroid-plus-plushie-29-kuroshitsuji-sebastian-michaelis-190704.4.jpg