RINGRINGRING "Hello?"

Communication...

WTF is that?

How are you supposed to you ask for things you want? How are you supposed to express your feelings with those you care for most?

Yenno, growing up I was told that the phenomena of wanting your partner to intuitively know how you feel and what you want was a female thing. Well, as I attempt to navigate my first set of experiences with this issue, I'm beginning to believe that the problem lies more with the damaging gender roles that were tattooed on my frontal lobe.

Don't talk too much. Be subservient. Be weak. Act like a lady.

Lasering off tattoos is an extended and painful process.

Perhaps the "Just talk to him!" advice is the ultimate solution here, but first I must address the preliminary problems inhibiting my ability to do so. For instance, the concertation of seeming crazy or of irritating him. These anxieties have no valid basis in our relationship, yet they remain as the the albatross around my neck.

Could it help to yell an exiguous few things I can't yet say to him into this corner of the internet? They won't echo far enough for him to hear it before they're ready to be received, so it seems safe. But upon writing some things down, the things tell me they'd rather remain unread and unsaid.

Fear rules all, and this seagull-ass-motherfucker is beginning to smell of decay.

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