what if i made a new one
kinda got burnt out from this dumb website from having to fucking decline so many fwiend requests from fucking kids despite having said time and time again that i dont wanna be buddy buddy with 15year olds
anyway, thots?
should i or should i just restructure this one or smth idk??

yall wanna act like ure friends with everyone on your fwiend list but dont even read people's about me or just the main page in general before fwiending lmao ridiculous
i dont know how many times i have to say i dont want kids under 16 on my list but yall still try, why tho?? arent there enough tweens for yall to fwiend on this site that u need to go after the 19 year olds that dont wanna interact with minors?? tf is yalls problem is it that hard to read,, furthermore, is it that hard to put a fucking number on ur bio?, just saying MINOR means shit lmao, yall can be 17 and still a minor and its completely different from being 14 for example. its a fucking number kids it wont ruin ur fucking webcore or wtv aesthetic yall got going on, its jus respectful to the people youre trying to add.

that said
ONCE AGAIN,, DO NOT ADD ME IF UNDER 16 OR NO AGE IN BIO

ive been getting lots of requests lately so this isnt @ anyone in specific,, ive just been really frustrated over this

my family's been fucking with my brain lately (as if that's not the usual) and i keep, for some reason, trying to fix things only for them to tear apart every attempt I make.
it's evolved into actual gaslighting when I'm only trying to make plans so we could at least try to act like a normal happy family for a day or two.

idk what to do anymore
if I talk I'm hysterical, if I don't I'm rude and don't care about them. feels as though everything I do is wrong in some way.

I've been getting lost in daydreams a lot lately because of this, almost to the point of dissociation, I lose myself in fantasies in the few moments I have to myself or when no one's attention is on me and it's the only thing that's been keeping me going these days. venting about my problems doesn't work anymore, I feel like I'm repeating myself, oversharing to friends that have heard it all before because this keeps happening time and time again and I don't blame them when they simply don't reply or don't read my messages because they've got their own problems and mine are simply too exhausting. I love my friends, I know they don't ignore me on purpose, they should tho.

I can't keep escaping to my dumb fantasies about fictional characters or some alternative reality where I'm away and happy and stable because I can't keep deluding myself like that but no matter how hard I try to face reality and fix it it's just too easy to take comfort in daydreams when everything falls apart around me despite all effort.

the comfort is always followed by some weird desire to reset, not end it all but just start over. tho that's impossible, starting over when I'm stuck in one place, with the same people, being the same person and I hate it all (not my friends tho I love them hh).
it's like everything's been conditioned to fail from the start, me, my family, where I stand in life. I feel stuck, like trying is worthless and too tiring because I'm wrong no matter what.

ooh so edgy of me to think this way when so many people out there have it million times worse than I do. I hate myself and even this self pity isnt safe from that self hatred. I can't even take my own feelings seriously without thinking I'm being ridiculous.

I said I wasn't looking for an end but a reset instead but it's so much easier to just want to die like I wanted to years ago.
I don't, I think, not really, not that much.

all this to say: I'm back to thinking of Sylvain's tits and how they would make my life 100 times better if they were squished against my face

some people on here are just,, obnoxious
people either act edgy af with blogs trashing everything remotely popular for no fucking reason other than shock value and then there's the wannabe sunshine kids whose pages are just the same thing over and over again, I swear I'm always stumbling upon kuromi inspired pages like??? that's it? that's y'all's personality? a sanrio character everyone else already kins? tho most of those people are actually pretty nice some of them are just straight up annoying and lowkey liars lmao
ofc I'm also obnoxious, I don't even try to hide how obnoxious I am but god at least I'm not trying to portray a fucking character for the sake of getting "friends" that y'all never fucking talk to lmao
this site is fun but only the customising part cause the social part is just not it

you're all welcome to disagree with me ofc, im harsh on my opinions cause I get bad vibes from people really easily, but pls tell me I'm wrong lmao

also let's stop pretending everyone reads everyone's blogs that's just ridiculous

edit: forgot to mention I despise 14/15 year olds on this site lmao I hated myself with those ages and now I hate everyone else too, cringe culture ain't over for those kids and on this hell site it's alive and well

I hate kinnies so much they annoy me so so much but I somewhat tolerate their existence cause that's just internet babeyy but now I'm questioning whether I'm a kinnie too :/
mostly cause I've been thinking of changing my name cause the one I go by now is too close to my deadname and it's kinda boring but the name I'm leaning towards is the name of a character I really relate to and I guess I could say I almost kin him so I don't know if it's cringe to change my name to his name knowing that everyone would notice the reason why I want to do that is because I kinda kin him lmao
I don't wanna be a kinnie hhhh

thinking about sylvain's titties and Dimitri's tiny waist,,, guess I'm Felix kin
or maybe just have good taste in fictional men

decided to write dimivain horse girls in love with a side of dimitri eating ass today but I'm stuck and he hant even tasted any ass yet 😔🤙

name cam
pronouns he/him
birthday 21.05.2001
sexuality/gender pansexual/trans
placements gemini, intp
languages pt pt, english, learning japanese (III Asian Studies at FLUL)

anime/manga
boku no hero academia
mob psycho 100
sarazanmai
jojo's bizarre adventure
given
uramichi oniisan
saiki k
games
danganronpa
bandori
enstars
idolish7
arcana
a3
your turn to die
fire emblem three houses
animal crossing~
genshin impact
a lot of rpg maker games
music
green day
eve
lorde
tyler the creator
indigo la end
galileu galilei
radwimps
asian kungfu generation
kana-boon
flow
kenshi yonezu
gorillaz
the killers
foster the people
vampire weekend
muse
fall out boy (not the new ones tho hh)
my chemical romance
panic!at the disco (same as fob)
declan mckenna
vocaloid
others
hypmic
mcu

favourite characters
boku no hero academia
bakugou katsuki, kaminari denki, kirishima eijirou, sero hanta, mina ashido, jirou kyouka
danganronpa
togami byakuya, naegi makoto, kirigiri kyoko, komaeda nagito, hinata hajime, ibuki mioda, fuyuhiko kuzuryu, chiaki nanami, rantaro amami, shuichi saihara, kokichi ouma
bandori
afterglow, ako, hina
enstars´
oddballs, undead, valkyrie
idolish7
TRIGGER, MEZZO, pythagoras trio
hypmic
fling posse, doppo, jyuto
fire emblem three houses
blue lions
dimitri, felix, sylvain, claude, dedue, hilda, hubert, ferdinand von aegir, ashe, linhardt, caspar, jeritza
genshin impact
kaeya, diluc, childe, beidou, razor, chongyun, ningguang, zhongli, xiao, scaramouche

ships
♡ kiribaku
♡ kamisero
♡ kiribakukami
♡ ochamina
♡ gendice
♡ hifudo
♡ jyutoriou
♡ jyudo
♡ ichidice
♡ momojirou
♡ tododeku
♡ poly mtc
♡ poly fp
♡ mocaran
♡ naegami
♡ hikoma
♡ fraldarddyd/dimilix
♡ ashedue
♡ dimiclaude
♡ marihilda
♡ ferdibert
♡ dimidue
♡ sylvix
♡ dimivain
♡ dimisylvix
♡ yurileth
♡ claudevain
♡ ashepar
♡ linpar
♡ dimileth but mostly with mbyleth
♡ dimiyuri
♡ yurilix
♡ sylvashe
♡ syldue

socials
I'm mostly on Twitter and I'm priv but u can request follow @feralmitri and I'll probably accept (I tweet a lot of personal shit like mental health and stuff but it's mostly about fe or wtv I'm into)

I have to redownload the app but I'm also on discord tho im not as active there cam sansmaeda dio SHINJI-KUN #8501

and my ig is pretty much deserted by now but I do check on it every once in a while cryptic_cam