vent post

i hate myself what the fuck and i doing wrong why can't i be the better one nothing ever works out for me and the one time it did everything's going downhill so slowly and i can feel every inch of pain why can't i have a normal childhood why can't i be a regular 12 year old and why won't anyone love me

please don't be rude i feel extremely pathetic posting this but it's better than using myself as a outlet and i'm trying not to go there again