Just me venting loves <3

My moms being homophobic and transphobic again. God, I can't wait to leave this house. I truly love her but it so tiring hearing how she feels about it and know that I'm bi and genderfluid. I just want to end it all but have none of them remember me so that they won't be sad. I know they love me and I love them too but hearing the content "How do you wake up and be gay?" "Women don't belong with women just like men don't belong with men" really isn't good for my mental health.