freaks (3/6/21)

i really no longer want to continue on.

no i don't mean in the suicide sense, i just mean in the sense that life is ridiculous and i want no part in it. theres been alot going on in my life and i am not vibing anymore. i have a new parter and theyre sweet and the only one to keep being consistent in my life now. living sucks again and i hate it.

for reference, i got my heart broken by my best friend. i thought i'd have him for awhile but the drug addicted rat doesn't stop for anyone, nor does he actually care. when he left i had to leave the man i thought i'd actually marry because i couldn't feel anymore except when i was high or drunk and he's against any of that. everything hurts my heart.

i've been keeping my myspace as like a journal of sorts so i don't want pity, im just venting.

maybe ill be normal again soon.