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i dont wanna think these things but lately ive felt that im so annoying, and that i bother my friends when i talk to them, that im not interesting enough to get to know and that nobody wants my affection or company even.
it pains me to believe that they would rather be with anybody else than with me.
i think this essentially is born from my crippling loneliness and insecurity, but how can i fix it?
needing constant reassurance makes me so high maintenance, i cant imagine someone would like talking to me.
also im like, a bitch so,,
even i cant put up with myself