Bad news again

Half a year ago I thought I planned my future life perfectly, but it all has changed....

todays morning when i woke up i checked the mailbox and found a letter with a negative reply to my job application.
I know that doesn't sound as awful but i based my whole "life restart" on that job.

In addition my mom puts a lot of pressure on me becuz i didnt had a real job for over 2 years and without a positive reply she doesn't help me out with my vaccation plans for the summer...