rant

i hate my mom sometimes, she just pisses me off so much and she hasnt even done anything bad. i think it might be cause im very dependent on her for everything and if she messes up it feels like shes doing it to purposfully hurt me. i get mad at people for no reason too like theyll do nothing and ill get so pissed off as if theyu were trying to hurt me specifically and i stay supee bitchy and mad at them for awhile even if they try and fix it immediatly. i wish i could act meaner when im angry cause i feel like everyone will get mad at me if i dont hold back and i dont wanna get punnished but i dont wanna hold back i just want to smash plates yell scream and tell everyone i hate them and them take me seriously and not think im joking. i just want to hurt these people (emotionally) even if they omly mildly hurt me i hate everyone so much everyone is so fucking annoying and never shuts the fuck up i hate them i hate them i hate them.