Blog 2 - I don't understand

I don't quite understand people. Why do people hate me? Is it because they're jealous or because I always have such a big smile on my face. I don't understand why you're jealous of me or the smile I try so hard to keep on. I mean, don't you do the same? Don't you force a smile everyday? I don't, If I'm being honest when I speak to people I start to forget all that has gone wrong in my life. I no longer remember what I was so upset about. Maybe it was the fact that you started ignoring me or maybe I make myself angry as it is. You may wonder why your existence bothers you so much, don't you? Well that's because you believe the world hates you and that makes you want to hate yourself because people are stupid and cruel. I think about it a lot, like what people are thinking or why'd they start taking forever to reply to my message. In truth, being hated doesn't bother me, but when people start to ignore me, that's when it becomes a problem. I understand you don't like me, but why ignored me, can't you just listen to what I have to say? No, they can't. That's why I don't understand people and why they do what they please. To be frank, I think it's because they feel less then others, but that's why they'll never be good enough. They'll always feel trapped because they care what others think and now they hate themselves more than anyone else in the world. People hate me, but I don't care because nobody has ever truly liked me in the first place, so why do I care when people ignore me? Well that's because I still want to try and be something we could never be because you were always jealous, but why? If you had my thoughts you would soon become lost because even I cannot understand them. I don't understand people that's why you'll never understand me.

By - Jae