another day, another problem

another thing that depresses me is MY AGE im feel old n useless all ma life i lived like a stone i think my family is starting to get tired of me i am afraid they will think i am lazy, i only have tlp but they will never understand because nobody believed my psychologist, so why should they believe me ?im 20 years old and im not doing anything for ma life but being on the internet and sleeping they might think why i dont go out and look for a job but to be honest people scare me

btw this song probably is the sndtrack of ma life =) https://open.spotify.com/track/5u2FOoFhp495GIj5BJC77J?si=j81E0bXcTbCqe788-PZkGQ