i want to be happy

i have nothing to look forward to

so bored....

i hang out with people who give me intrusive thoughts

blood
blood
blood
blood

i love you
i love someone

theyre so nice to me

i want to hurt them
but i love them
i want to see them in pain

music heals me
music is good
i love
but sometimes
i cant find music that connects with my soul

my soul
slowly drifting with no destination

i am lonely
but im not alone

i am jealous
so bad that.. nevermind

i love you
i think

im scared i'll lose my personality

it happens alot
when i stop being that fun bubbly weirdo
and slowly
stop
and im watching myself stop but i cant stop it.

i love you