drinkin monster and thinkin about life

hi. uh... i don't really know how to write these. i kinda feel like an idiot just talking to myself lol

i'm going to ed residential treatment soon. not sure how i feel about it, since i'm fat tho... idk. i just hope i can recover soon. i'm really sick of hating myself.

anyone else on here currently struggling with an ed? does anyone have any advice?