Flouride water ///tw/// suicide ig

I woke up with the blinding lights of the ER room, the nurse was a bitch,

"its all hormones",

well fuck you too,

"have sweet dreams",

the paramedic was awfully nice, like a father saying goodnight to his child,

my thigh was burning and twitching, bleeding, it really hurt, my hands were stained in blood and i couldn't keep awake,

whisper spread,

"poor girl" call poison control"

I was tired, I wished I had just went to bed, maybe I wouldn't have woken up, I wish I hadn't

All my life has been is bullshit, what am How How why i feel if i was just dead I would be so so much better off, I wouldn't burden anyone else why can't they realize how toxic i am
killing yourself because you got dumped that the worst its so toxic and the guilt i feel is the worst my entire stomach churns and i just want to apologize beg for forgiveness something that was supposed to help everyone make everyone feel better just burdened them
ive picked up really bad habits, smoking is fun, the smoke engulfs my senses, i thought i would look really cool smoking a cigarette but in reality i looked extremly lame
i wish everyone would forget of my existence and find someone much better to replace me with,

a cute girlfriend, not mentally ill, beautiful, smart, confident

a best friend, there for you, someone who doesn't live far away, who actually is there for you

a friend, companion, everyone should find someone that can replace me, someone better, i it would be better for everyone, anyone

who even are you anymore, where you anyone to begin with
no shut up im sorry already
i am too much
sorry for everything
please move on
forget about me
im not worth your time you are the sweetest the best find someone who desrves it
afterall love is still love if it isnt reciporcated
ill be really happy still loving you its ok if its one sided i dont deserve anything more
i am lucky to love someone to begin with
i hate myself
i wish i could make a new identity someone who isnt me

its not like it will matter

goodnight my sweet child dont wake up again