please read this I need attention

My uncle is the only family member thats really far away and didnt came back for like 5 years, he kinda is still connected with his mother but thats it and I GET HIM. I WANT TO FUCKING LEAVE. Im listening to fucking doomer music and imagining that Im walking the streets of a country far away from romania, actually not that far away still in europe but its dark and chilly outside and Im walking the streets without a fear of being abducted and Im carefree and my past is far away and I can be who the fuck I want now