New Year!

I've never really liked new years. I can't tell you why but it's always just been underwhelming for me. I don't think this year is gonna fully end until COVID ends. We've all lost so much and are still grieving if it's the death of a loved one or even if we just didn't get to see our friends throughout the pandemic. I had almost every negative thing I thought could happen happen to me this year and it's crazy I made it out. On the 31st I did have a moment of realization and hope though. Back in April my cat died, I had her for 14 years she was my best friend and extremely important to me. I took her death extremely hard and relapsed. I often go for walks at night as a stress reliever and ever since my cat died I've seen a rabbit every night I was feeling extremely depressed. A few days ago I saw a rabbit and it just stared at me for five minutes. I went home and googled the significance of seeing rabbits and it said that they represent comfort and family. I started crying when I read that because even though I don't really believe in signs from the universe or spirituality but I feel a deep connection to these rabbits for some reason. I feel like my dead cat is reaching out to me. It might just be my mind scrambling for any shred of comfort in these terrible times but even if it is it's nice to have that as a little bit of comfort.
Thanks for reading :)
-Marty <3