idk

i wish i could stop being so afraid of everything in life. i don't know where that fear comes from, the root of it feels as if it has been growing along with me all my life. i don't know how to overcome it. it is small things like what if i accidently poured the detergent into my cup of water and poison myself and big things like what if the thing i am doing isn't meant for me and i lose my life to it living unpassionately. i shake with fear of everything in life. i am becoming closer to my partner and it scares me. i don't understand how to fix myself. i wish to be braver. my head hurts. bye!