♥24.04.21♥

probably TW//depression, maybe sh, transphobia, stupid problems
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i've to draw something and send it to the art school. i dont want to go to this school, i want to have normal high school life
i dont feel anything, im too tired to keep contact with my internet friends (i dont have friends in my town. i mean i've my best friend since 4th grade but he's more antisocial than me)
i think im really annoying, my parents hate me cuz im not their daugter, they cant accept me as a boy, i feel like a one big mistake
and im feeling down cuz i cant see live people who literally saved my life, i'll probably sound like typical emo, maybe i am typical emo, but i cant stop crying over the fact that i cant see my chemical romance live just cuz of my mother; i asked her about tickets and the told me that we dont have enough money cuz im going to the camp
guess what, she told me im not going to the camp and that i still cant buy thickets, even if we have money for that
i know thats stupid lol

nvm i feel so fucking empty, i cant remember what day of the week is today, what time is it or which month is now
maybe its just cuz of my meds, who knows

tomorrow(?) or in 2 or 3 days i've therapy session with my parents, we'll talk about my name and the fact that im a boy, about the fact that they're hurting me everytime they're talking to me

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