april 6th 2021

Ramadan is soon haha. Don't have many opinions on that, listening to few podcasts at the moment.

we went to an Amish farm to get fresh milk since my mom is really big on the organic thing. there was a girl there, around my age wearing a dark green dress with sleeves that came to her elbows. She was wearing a white apron on her waist. Her hair was in a bun which was held down with what looked like a big white paperclip. She had freckles, very light on her nose, and cheeks. I really just got to see her from her side as she carried milk buckets to my car with my dad. her side profile was perfect honestly. she said her name was "Barbie" when my dad asked her but I'm almost 100% sure that I heard her wrong. She was very sweet and smiled every time she saw me sitting in the back of the car. gosh. I'm not really sure if I wanted to be her or wanted to be with her or just get to know her. as we left, my dad gave her some extra money and she smiled and ran off to her mother. idk what to say honestly. she just seemed so happy and cheerful and careless in a good way and so put together, even when living disconnected from the modern world. it was strange.