✿1/3/21✿

✿happy new year!✿

new year, new identity crisis ! I really want to cut my hair, change my aesthetic/wardrobe/room and make every type of art I can. But there is,, no,, time. Right now I have a list of projects I want to start but there is no way I can put energy into any of them considering school starts tomorrow. Speaking of, it's going to be online so I'm grateful for that. I really can't stand school especially with the pandemic, its just been a struggle. I wonder how close to failing I'll be this semester,,, pray for me.

im tired of thinking about school, lets continue to rant about the 334726784263874628 things I want to make (all at once). Ive been drawing a bit more in the past few days so hopefully that sticks this year. I've thought about buying an amazon tattoo gun and just going ham on some oranges. Considering I have no clue what I want to do for a living, I might just try to pursue tattooing, ive had a little bit of an obsession with tattoo videos on YouTube for a bit over a year now so we'll see if I bite da bullet and buy the supplies. another purchase and ridiculous creative endeavor: im about to buy myself a nice camera and I would love to improve photography and even go for making short films and such. Ive written a couple short films but never liked them enough or had the guts to continue making them. I really struggle to put all of my energy into anything art related because I feel my peers and friends would find it dumb and being perceived is my least favorite thing haha. im honestly just babbling right now but shrug. I should get over that whole 'being afraid to be judged based on what I make' thing. ANYWHO, twas nice to update this and I think imma just rant from time to time or update on anything I make on here.
✿goodnighttttttt <3