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things r getting the tiniest bit better !! i had a panic attack earlier but actually got to ground myself from it ! a couple friends of mine have reached out to talk to me and one even called me (¯︶¯) my crush has been talking to me constantly, and i was motivated enough to take a bath AND work on stuff, i wanna read more of this book i bought, but i think i only have the energy to cook dinner or read :( but i'll take what i can get! i'm a little scared tomorrow will be horrible or back to the same mess, that this was just a lucky day, but i'm gna ignore my nagging thoughts and just enjoy that it's summer n it's warm n i'm alive and feeling everything. also, i'm so so thankful for the amount of ppl messaging me here or on discord, and commenting supportive things <3 it genuinely means so much and i wish i was brave enough to directly be close friends w all of you